05-12-2015, 02:54 PM
(11-08-2011, 03:09 PM)Gemini Wolf Wrote: Dear God,
I am confused. I find that the mystery only deepens as I increase my awareness. Am I moving closer to you, to myself, or to anything?
I know we shouldn’t ask why, but how come I was given such a strong bias? Did I program myself in this life, or did you program me? I feel so comfortable with the feeling of being an anthro within myself. It is my greatest fulfillment I am aware of. But what if, upon exiting this world at the end of incarnation, I find I am still human? My root race just has to be anthropomorphic beings, it just has to. But if it is not, can I be happy who I am forever?
What is spiritual evolvement? Can I evolve while having what my greatest desire for fulfillment tells me, or must I settle for what I end up becoming? Are cartoon beings real? Let me suspend reality for a moment and say that they are. Does my star family miss me as much as I imagine they do? Can they feel the sacrifice I feel in my heart, to where it hurts?
God, I do thank you for the ability to feel emotions as densely as I do, for the ability to allow Tao to flow freely through me. It is this that keeps me centered, even when I ponder these questions. Even with this immense centeredness, this one bias really pulls on my heartstrings. If I saw another furry anthro being, I would not hesitate to lay down my life for them. Could I say the same for another human? Well, I do see a certain amount of anthroness in other humans as well, and am beginning to understand the importance of compassion.
What density am I in? How can I approach you without getting burned? How can I fulfill my biases so that I can be at peace with who I am?
Much Love and Light,
- Indigo Gemini Wolf
Same questions to God, only deeper now.