05-14-2015, 11:58 AM
I'll speak of a position where I experienced interesting phenomenon during my awakening. While I don't recall ever hearing about a solo green ray transfer, I for some reason immediately thought of an experience that makes me really ponder if that's what happened...
To start with, there's a way of Being where you integrate into yourself the lessons you desires to learn regarding the traits you dislike about yourself (much of this work is done through the lower sanctum green ray) and if you truly take them into the roots of the mind it allows actual change on a physical level. For me I did experience in almost a traumatically fast way the 'shedding' or 'dropping away' of 'unwanted ways of being'. I lost my anger. I lost my impatience. I lost my roughness (outside of needing to be). I lost my sadness. I lost my depression. I lost my tiredness (I LOST MY TIREDNESS!) And I gained Genuine Unconditional Love for not only myself, but everyone else around me.
During those times I ended up exploring my sexuality towards men. Let me just say, living a lonely life and being a former lurker of 4chan's /b/ board, I had some pretty messed up areas inside of me. And putting that all aside, when I finally got passed the many oddities that just didn't resonate with me (anyone who knows that board may know very well some pretty heavy skewing of sexual desires occurs) and ended up with the odd final placement of...Why are dick's attractive...But not the rest of the guy? So in turn, here's my advice.
Don't watch too much porn, it literally will skew your mind's opinion of attractive beyond disrepair into a completely new configuration. Especially depending on the porn genre. Heavy STS genre's will also affect you spiritually. I used to be huge into light BDSM porn and found it repulsed me for a while, alongside most porn when I was going through my awakening. In fact I had gotten so desperate to have a decent alone time I even took up sexual meditation where I just focused on my own arousal to get a full handle on my complete desires sexually.
Which one day, ended in what I still to this day would call the single most mindblowingest orgasm there could have been experienced. By myself, but better than anything I ever knew. The end result left me so moved I actually at first thought I just got loved on by a Succubus because my entire body was washed over in what felt like a ray of light, as if the sun were shining on your skin, only underneath the skin, in a warm flushing over you way that goes in oscillations or waves and subsides muuuuuuuuch slower than the usual orgasm.
Which I have noticed lately has been weak due to a lot of personal strife in myself towards my own sexuality towards women.
I think blockages in Orange and Yellow ray are best admitted by the person when they're ready. Having another tell you your orange ray is being funky when you're sitting there wondering why you can't just have the power which is apparently so close but right there beyond grasp, but you're supposed to keep working and working to get what you desire. I think that's a trap. I think blockages can be closer seen as ways to better accept yourself.
Take Gemini. He has an immensely strong sense of self it seems, or at least what he desires to be and actually isn't. I think this brings him an In-Plain Sight Unseen acute awareness of something about himself that he does not want but is here trying to learn to accept. At least, I see it as we all are here to do that alongside other reasons.
I look at it as at a Red Ray Level, and I'll use myself directly (and somewhat embarrassingly) as an example, I desire to be alive, but at times in my loneliness that desire ceases. This basically halts most instreaming light from getting halfway towards Orange Ray. At times when I also feel like most of my sexuality is pointless, it really does cut off most energy flow from Red Ray, however I always seem to be in a sense of isolation by this point. Like I withdrew all the way into the pit of my being because I didn't want to be here anymore.
When I awoke, it was a clear and bright, I WANT TO BE HERE, I WANT THIS, I WANT TO LIVE, HERE, NOW. I felt confident in my body (despite being 280 pounds at the time), I felt powerful and a sense of self, I was sure I didn't want to be alone. My Red Ray was open and shining! It made it so much easier to work in Orange Ray, and subsequently Yellow Ray, for each builds off the prior, despite each latter encompassing the prior.
I had an open enough system at the time of that first mindblowingest experience, I might have performed an actual green ray healing transfer on myself. It doesn't explain why I suddenly inexplicably knew I was not alone and that someone else had just helped me. But the experience was so intense despite being so calming that...It was an experience of it's own accord. Truly, a powerful occurrence whatever I felt was.
But damn, did I need it even then, it made me feel sexy. Don't know how else to describe it, but afterwards I just felt full of...Attraction. Maybe I applied the feeling to the wrong context of the word. It was immediately after that experience that it feels like I made the biggest leap in terms of polarization...
Man, I cannot wait for this incarnation to end and all the answers to be laid out. Yet. I can. Yay mystery~
To start with, there's a way of Being where you integrate into yourself the lessons you desires to learn regarding the traits you dislike about yourself (much of this work is done through the lower sanctum green ray) and if you truly take them into the roots of the mind it allows actual change on a physical level. For me I did experience in almost a traumatically fast way the 'shedding' or 'dropping away' of 'unwanted ways of being'. I lost my anger. I lost my impatience. I lost my roughness (outside of needing to be). I lost my sadness. I lost my depression. I lost my tiredness (I LOST MY TIREDNESS!) And I gained Genuine Unconditional Love for not only myself, but everyone else around me.
During those times I ended up exploring my sexuality towards men. Let me just say, living a lonely life and being a former lurker of 4chan's /b/ board, I had some pretty messed up areas inside of me. And putting that all aside, when I finally got passed the many oddities that just didn't resonate with me (anyone who knows that board may know very well some pretty heavy skewing of sexual desires occurs) and ended up with the odd final placement of...Why are dick's attractive...But not the rest of the guy? So in turn, here's my advice.
Don't watch too much porn, it literally will skew your mind's opinion of attractive beyond disrepair into a completely new configuration. Especially depending on the porn genre. Heavy STS genre's will also affect you spiritually. I used to be huge into light BDSM porn and found it repulsed me for a while, alongside most porn when I was going through my awakening. In fact I had gotten so desperate to have a decent alone time I even took up sexual meditation where I just focused on my own arousal to get a full handle on my complete desires sexually.
Which one day, ended in what I still to this day would call the single most mindblowingest orgasm there could have been experienced. By myself, but better than anything I ever knew. The end result left me so moved I actually at first thought I just got loved on by a Succubus because my entire body was washed over in what felt like a ray of light, as if the sun were shining on your skin, only underneath the skin, in a warm flushing over you way that goes in oscillations or waves and subsides muuuuuuuuch slower than the usual orgasm.
Which I have noticed lately has been weak due to a lot of personal strife in myself towards my own sexuality towards women.
I think blockages in Orange and Yellow ray are best admitted by the person when they're ready. Having another tell you your orange ray is being funky when you're sitting there wondering why you can't just have the power which is apparently so close but right there beyond grasp, but you're supposed to keep working and working to get what you desire. I think that's a trap. I think blockages can be closer seen as ways to better accept yourself.
Take Gemini. He has an immensely strong sense of self it seems, or at least what he desires to be and actually isn't. I think this brings him an In-Plain Sight Unseen acute awareness of something about himself that he does not want but is here trying to learn to accept. At least, I see it as we all are here to do that alongside other reasons.
I look at it as at a Red Ray Level, and I'll use myself directly (and somewhat embarrassingly) as an example, I desire to be alive, but at times in my loneliness that desire ceases. This basically halts most instreaming light from getting halfway towards Orange Ray. At times when I also feel like most of my sexuality is pointless, it really does cut off most energy flow from Red Ray, however I always seem to be in a sense of isolation by this point. Like I withdrew all the way into the pit of my being because I didn't want to be here anymore.
When I awoke, it was a clear and bright, I WANT TO BE HERE, I WANT THIS, I WANT TO LIVE, HERE, NOW. I felt confident in my body (despite being 280 pounds at the time), I felt powerful and a sense of self, I was sure I didn't want to be alone. My Red Ray was open and shining! It made it so much easier to work in Orange Ray, and subsequently Yellow Ray, for each builds off the prior, despite each latter encompassing the prior.
I had an open enough system at the time of that first mindblowingest experience, I might have performed an actual green ray healing transfer on myself. It doesn't explain why I suddenly inexplicably knew I was not alone and that someone else had just helped me. But the experience was so intense despite being so calming that...It was an experience of it's own accord. Truly, a powerful occurrence whatever I felt was.
But damn, did I need it even then, it made me feel sexy. Don't know how else to describe it, but afterwards I just felt full of...Attraction. Maybe I applied the feeling to the wrong context of the word. It was immediately after that experience that it feels like I made the biggest leap in terms of polarization...
Man, I cannot wait for this incarnation to end and all the answers to be laid out. Yet. I can. Yay mystery~