05-15-2015, 09:50 AM
Your story reminds me a lot of when I was younger. Not in specifics - today, society has really gotten way out of control with sex and general shallowness. It was bad when I was younger (I felt), but it's really bad now. I'm 48 now.
In my childhood, the overall sense I had was that I was lost. This world just simply made little sense to me.
After college, I started to try to fit in. I tried to be like others in what I thought was an insane world - to fit into the weird relationship/popularity competition that was around me. I found that I couldn't do it all that well. I think this period in my life gave me a lot of understanding about what I didn't want to be. Then there was a point for me when I just decided that I was going to be exactly what I was, and I didn't care anymore how it made me look.
My theory on what happens is that when young people are in school and around a lot of other young people, that popular culture dominates most individual mindsets because everybody wants to look popular. Meanwhile, few take the time to really delve into themselves and figure out who they truly are. You probably crave being around people who are truly authentic, who stop and ask the question "why?" and figure out the answer.
In my life, I've pretty much harmonized with the notion that it will always feel like "I am swimming upstream", in other words, that I'm virtually always thinking and going against what most people would do in order to be true to myself. I have attracted good people into my life because of it, and over time, the things I didn't prefer in my life have simply gone away by my choices. This life thing is a long process, and it'll get you to do all kinds of stuff, and your thinking and life situations will be changed many, many times. YMMV... IMHO
In my childhood, the overall sense I had was that I was lost. This world just simply made little sense to me.
After college, I started to try to fit in. I tried to be like others in what I thought was an insane world - to fit into the weird relationship/popularity competition that was around me. I found that I couldn't do it all that well. I think this period in my life gave me a lot of understanding about what I didn't want to be. Then there was a point for me when I just decided that I was going to be exactly what I was, and I didn't care anymore how it made me look.
My theory on what happens is that when young people are in school and around a lot of other young people, that popular culture dominates most individual mindsets because everybody wants to look popular. Meanwhile, few take the time to really delve into themselves and figure out who they truly are. You probably crave being around people who are truly authentic, who stop and ask the question "why?" and figure out the answer.
In my life, I've pretty much harmonized with the notion that it will always feel like "I am swimming upstream", in other words, that I'm virtually always thinking and going against what most people would do in order to be true to myself. I have attracted good people into my life because of it, and over time, the things I didn't prefer in my life have simply gone away by my choices. This life thing is a long process, and it'll get you to do all kinds of stuff, and your thinking and life situations will be changed many, many times. YMMV... IMHO
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