08-19-2010, 10:49 AM
Quote:As far as you can tell, these experiences come up suddenly, and they always destabilize and interfere with the good you seek to do in this life. They disintegrate your awareness of cause and effect. They scatter your focus on free will choices. They snuff out ordinary consciousness but they do not replace it with enlightenment.
It does come suddenly. I don't take leaving this illusion lightly. It's a really big deal. When I think about it coming (daily) I say to myself.. "not yet, not now, we aren't ready, you must hold it back."
Something/someone says to me, "It's time Chris, it is time. Time to go."
I don't feel that the someone is an evil/sts entity. There is a sense of Motherly caring in the words, and I'm a baby, crying about it... "Please mommy no.. I know you love me, but not yet, don't make me do it now."