The Spiritual Use of Entheogens

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I've not done drugs in 10 or so years now, but like someone else mentioned here I took a lot. I knew from a very young age I wanted to experiment with drugs.

LSD was my drug of choice, but ketamin, mdma anything I could get I would take and take in large quantities.
I had a huge range of amazing experiences. My first trip I felt like Jesus back from the dead.
I had mornings on my own on the beach helping the tide come in and being part of the sea. I saw faces every were, tree people - flowers talked to me, fairies, bubbles. I remember walking threw a ploughed felid and the lumps of soil were heads and as I stepped on them they crumbled into smaller heads. Every thing I looked at had pictures and patterns in like the magic eye images. I was a tiny being that belonged to the earth.


I had 100's of trips and never a bad one. I felt like Acid forced me into a walking, functioning medative state for 10+ hrs.

However I saw friends who were far less fortunate than me and one who never came back and ended her time here at the age of 21.

The birth of my children was exactly like trip, the way I surrendered to what my body and the universe was doing to me; let it show me what to do.
What I am experiencing in my life now is so similar to my experiences on drugs, but it's free and there’s no comedown.
I see the same images when I close my eyes, and open them. I have similar insights, love, excitement, feelings. I feel energy tangibly now - similarly to how I did then. I see deeper meaning in things and get messages.


Drugs are powerful but not without risk. I feel so blessed to have had all the experiences I have in my life and now too realise drugs are only a tool, and not the only way.