Meditation tips?

[Peregrinus]

I would ask you to consider that you are trying too hard. That wasn't a question. Rather than trying to meditate, just meditate. One cannot force it. It must flow naturally as the river flows. In almost all occasions, the beginning of river is turbulent and wild, and the farther it travels, it in places becomes deep and wide and slow. Have patience. Your river will slow.

If you want help, ask for it. Ask your higher self and/or Ra, Hatonn, Latwii. Ask them by name either mentally or out loud. They will hear you, something like "Ra, my brothers, please help me deepen my consciousness in this meditation. I thank you for your service brothers. I love you". They will always help, but then this means more entities watching you.

As for the feeling of being watched, you always, and I mean always, have at least one entity with you, depending on your home density (if you are a wanderer). More probable is that you have four entities watching you are all times, but additionally you may have dozens. They are there when you wake, when you sleep, when you cook, do dishes, housework, masturbate, make love... always. They all love and cherish you dearly. Get over it.