08-27-2010, 11:14 PM
4 years ago I was very depressed, the only thing that gave me a reason to stay alive was the fact that I could smoke pot once a week, alone in my room, when my parents were gone, I'd just listen to music, be happy, think differently. Once when I was high I had a spiritual experience, and I had no interest in spirituality back then, ever since that event everytime I smoke pot I either meditate to reach deep states I normally can't or try to learn new things from my new point of view. I seldomly smoke any more but the option is always available if I need it. I also tried psilocybin mushrooms once and hawaiin baby woodrose seeds (LSA) once and both times I didn't hallucinate but instead entered states of forced psychoanalysis/introspection and they were intense, I handled them well because I had strong will power but I don't know if I'll ever try "hallucinogens" (a rather inadequete term, because even if you do "hallucinate" what you see is most often an exagerated version of something actually there, not a true "oasis in the desert" type hallucination) again. I took LSD once but I was afraid and spat it out.