Sexual addiction! and Male-Female energy roles/energies

[Jade]

I still have an issue with that distortion i guess. I believe i have mostly accepted it but still need to find balance in it. I started off watching cartoon videos as a teenager then progressed towards more fetish/BDSM style material. I understand the roots of my distortion as the lack of a loving relasonship and that porn creates a never ending desire of orange ray distortions. I tried to overcome this many time and with some success i was able to repress it for a time being but i would always end up going back, saying to my self i will just try and try again to overcome it. I guess i just accept it now but i think balance is mostly in order, however its difficult to balance such a distortion without access to a loving relasonship, i have never been in one before. I had thought about going to see a prostitute to experience some of my desire but i haven't gone through with such an experience nor do i wish to, as i understand that its not really the direct answer to the issue. Having lost a lot of weight and become more outgoing i would have thought a relasonship would have been easier but nothing has happened so far, i tried a dating website only to be rejected but countless profiles, half of them are probably fake but hey ho, what can one do but accept, learn and grow towards balance?

Hi Matt, thanks for sharing your experiences openly. I know a few men who, like you, haven't been with a women yet and deal with it well, but there are many others who are very vindictive and angry towards women for this situation. I think it has a lot to do with an overcorrection against women having basically been available for the taking for many, many centuries. This is what men were taught and this is not the case anymore, but porn usually reinforces archaic gender stereotypes, which exacerbates the issue of course.

For example, I'd guess most people are aware of the "Gamergate" issues - a woman, as part of a youtube series, made a video about gender tropes in video games (most men's primary form of media training), and how the typical scenario is that men must do x, y, z, and then they will get the girl (the final/ultimate reward). And so that when in real life, men follow the steps "Get a good job, be thin, be charismastic" and they DON'T get the girl, they get resentful, because somewhere they were told that if they jump through these hoops, they will get the girl. (usually unnamed or, "Princess" in many, many games) Anyway, the girl who made this video got/still gets so many rape/death threats because of her keen exposure of sexism in video games.

Men and women have a lot of repressed anger towards each other, as genders, which I think is one thing that can be healed. The gender dichotomy rift needs to be closed and we need to stop pointing fingers. I'm not talking about anyone here, I'm just musing in general - porn is a symptom. And porn addiction is a real thing that creates a pleasure-release feedback loop that is hard to break without completely giving it up, and that takes increasing stimuli to work - ie more fetishized sex.

Since everyone is being so honest, my experience with porn (I'm sure I've shared before) is minimal and I was never addicted, but when I would consume it is was one of two extremes, either lesbians having a completely feminine experience, or, group sex. I understand how weird it is because I never would want to participate actually in either of these situations, but I think most of it can be traced to orange ray issues, as Ra describes, a blockage being the desire to be controlled or to control a partner.

The first energy transfer is red ray. It is a random transfer having to do only with your reproductive system.


The orange- and the yellow-ray attempts to have sexual intercourse create, firstly, a blockage if only one entity vibrates in this area, thus causing the entity vibrating sexually in this area to have a never-ending appetite for this activity. What these vibratory levels are seeking is green-ray activity. There is the possibility of orange- or yellow-ray energy transfer; this being polarizing towards the negative: one being seen as object rather than other-self; the other seeing itself as plunderer or master of the situation.

In third* ray there are two possibilities. Firstly, if both vibrate in third* ray there will be a mutually strengthening energy transfer, the negative or female, as you call it, drawing the energy from the roots of the beingness up through the energy centers, thus being physically revitalized; the positive, or male polarity, as it is deemed in your illusion, finding in this energy transfer an inspiration which satisfies and feeds the spirit portion of the body/mind/spirit complex, thus both being polarized and releasing the excess of that which each has in abundance by nature of intelligent energy, that is, negative/intuitive, positive/physical energies as you may call them; this energy transfer being blocked only if one or both entities have fear of possession, of being possessed, of desiring possession or desiring being possessed.

* This should be fourth or green. Don and Ra corrected the error in session 32.


The other green-ray possibility is that of one entity offering green-ray energy, the other not offering energy of the universal love energy, this resulting in a blockage of energy for the one not green ray thus increasing frustration or appetite; the green-ray being polarizing slightly towards service to others.

Ra says the blockages are symptoms of a desire for green-ray transfer, which is the holy grail. Ra has so much information about sexual energy transfers and blockages that it's probably good to delve into it in the mindset of thinking of the energy transfers that are taking place between one and the one it is watching/using.