Desire to die

[Plenum]

well, Carla managed to induce such a situation:

63.3 Questioner: You are saying that the instrument itself then created the kidney problem at that time?

Ra: I am Ra. The instrument’s desire to leave this density lowered the defenses of an already predisposed weak body complex, and an allergic reaction was so intensified as to cause the complications which distorted the body complex towards unviability. The will of the instrument, when it found that there was indeed work to be done in service, was again the guiding factor or complex of vibratory patterns which kept the body complex from surrendering to dissolution of the ties which cause the vitality of life.

but, fortunately, she was given the choice to return, to do the Work that she came here to do.

And aren't we grateful for that

 

there is so much Confusion on this side of the Veil.  To get to the point where one wishes to exit the gift of incarnation ... I have faced it earnestly, once.  And it was also to do with a misperceived sense that I was in a situation where I would be baffled (ie prevented) from pursuing my heart's desire.  Forunately, that state of consciousness only lasted for an evening, but the thoughforms so created can linger for a lifetime, even after one has changed one's approach.  Powerful emotions create powerful effects.