Talking with Crystals and Opening Up

[@ndy]

@ndy, with your permission I did some more extensive balancing. Your yellow chakra was damaged, and needed repair, strengthening and nurturing. Did you by chance have a past trauma? I tuned into imbalances of your past and helped to compensate. I don't know what were the events, but Ifelt strong past issues.

I strengthened your shields around you to help you from being pulled so far off center. I brought in the energy of Apollo, which is a very good strong and confident energy. He works very well for you when you don't feel strong.

Thank you again for doing this.
It's odd last night, after a week or so of 'stuck in a loop dream' that were seemingly about belief in myself and doubt.
I had a vivid disturbing dream that I work myself from it was along the lines of ‘I was in a dark area with 100’s of people like statues, I was one of them like the terracotta army - We were all identical and had 2 ‘outfits’ that we could swap between’ I can’t remember if I decided to swap to the other outfit …The point I woke myself I felt like I was being spun round and round fast... This is the 2nd time I've felt this sensation while asleep I woke myself up last time too. Both times the dreams have been fine until the spinning.

I grounded myself meditated on love forgiveness of me and self belief before sleeping again then had a dream of serving in a cafe, the kitchen was top floor but a garden with fountain and I kept walking a long white spiral tunnle up and down taking food below and bringing dirty dishes up

I'm not certain about past trauma, I've always been grateful for my life and experiences as they've brought me to were I am now.
I look for the positives and try to learn from things.

Though I guess my life’s not been what I'd call easy, but is any ones!
I was confused by Christianity at the age of 4 when I believed in reincarnation and my Grandfather died. I was a Dyslexic ADHD child labelled as disruptive and lazy until finally diagnosed with Dyslexia when I got to uni. My Mother died when I was 17/18 we had a difficult relationship due to my desire for freedom. I spent 10 years or more with eating disorders.
Oh and I've spent 10 years living with someone who has a problem with fear and anxiety. Sooooooo possibly something traumatic in there