Are there really other selves at all

[Glow]

Glow, do you find it difficult to trust in other circumstances as well, or is it just in relation to veiling / LOO?

If it's a broader issue, perhaps some introspection and healing may be of benefit?

I think I do trust. In many cases where no trust is warranted.
I'm fairly open so that shows I trust I will not be judged or that if I am I will be ok.

The word trust being given to me in meditation is fairly ironic because if anything this life should have been one I learned NOT to trust. Yet even now I extend trust out of love to others before they prove trust worthy. You name it I have experienced it as a child, teen, young adult. I must have cleared everyone's karma.

miraculously I healed all that forgave myself and others for they are only capable of doing their best. I continued to trust but perhaps with more caution. I know in my soul all that made me who I am so I trust that part of the plan even though no one should have had to live through it.

The loss of my faith shook my pretty good I'm not sure I will ever have faith or trust in any dogma again but I trust there is something beautiful on the other side and I belong to them/it.
That I can trust.

Beyond that I was given a soulconnection which I was told to trust in meditation and in divine guidance yet he has hurt me more somehow than everything else combined because I trusted him to completion with my very soul. He suffered much of the same abuses but hasn't been able to heal them.
I continue to be told to trust. Trust what exactly he won't hurt me on purpose but wow his unintentional is worse than everything else combined. I still can't make sense of that.

Do I have trust issues. I guess I had better have a few but inherently no I am reluctant to stop trusting. In business and in human and animal encounters my instincts are always to extend trust because being trusted IS healing for other selves and myself so I take the bullet if they prove me wrong. In the mean time I show them they can be trust worthy, and just worthy in general.

With GOD the most important relationship there is If anything my questioning of all this, of everything of spirit is because more than anything I WANT to trust.

The stronger my foundation the less likely it is to crumble. With Christianity the Christ consiousness was something so inately truthful to my soul I blindly believed the rest. To lose the rest eventually caused me to lose the Christ consiousness for a while. I don't want to experience that again. So I'm checking my foundation. LOO every word so far rings with truth. This is more worrisome in some ways because if I build another faulty foundation with so much dogma ringing true how will I ever trust myself again to recognize truth?

So long answer there is some trust issues but I believe,... No I trust I experienced them all in my life for a purpose part of which is so that I could learn to build this very foundation. To discern not just with the heart but with the mind and with the soul. Yes meditation I need to do it more but I'm not sure I need healing. I'm stupidly resilient. I'm awake but not broken and life sure tried to break me. I'm not jaded, know no hate, or judgement. Forgiveness, love, and compassion just some frustration mixed in.

Of course I accept any healing vibes offered I trust this was not tmi.