Reality Creation

[Night Owl]

There is really no limit to your capacity to break down things to a simple level anagogy. I wonder how did you find such balance? Is it only the result of the LOO or have you experienced extreme unbalance to reach such level of balance?

I think your analogy with peace and passion is more than on the spot. I have experienced passion to a level where it brings me down to depression. So I work toward peace instead. I had depression for a while and so knowing what it is I seek a way that doesn't go back there. There is no turning back. I prefer stillness than depression. My current state is somewhat strange in that knowing what depression is I don't think I'm still depressed because I have found peace and soothed resistance with most of my existence. I am more in a state where I am a potential in stillness and I make choices out of not going back there, out of not creating more resistance because I know it's not useful but I also don't know what else to do. I end up finding peace when I have no desires because having them keeps them from happening and so I put more work into peace than passion since I crossed the LOO's path. My very few strong desires are not gone but perhaps I am not here to experience the manifestation of desires but to find peace. So I soothe resistance of what happens. But the result is strange in that I simultaneously experience an increase of passion for peace but a decrease in passion for what result happens. Until nothing happens. I have no resistance when nothing happens but instead the universe sends me some pressure where I should be wanting something and I wonder if I am the one who desires that unconsciously or if this is the distortions and resistance of someone else whose release of negative energy impact me. Or both. Since I really have a hard time finding a new desire to keep me going I figured it is much more related to someone else having an impact on me but yet at the source of all things I'm stuck with the why am I here question. I intentionally chose to incarnate here and forgot why and now that I'm here I miss the point. What is there to do when you find complete peace? Is it useful to experience distortion when you know peace? Peace is already hard enough to reach and understand.