Your experiences of negative densities

[Minyatur]

Minyatur, do you have memories from your past STS lives ?

More than memories, I usually get strong feelings about things I cannot perceive by allowing my mind to wander, my energy field was always closed in this life, so such strong feelings often just feel much more real than any part of my life. When thinking about Ra for example, I found deep rooted hatred for their ways of which I saw the shadows, I perceived that they hurt many and made many fall deeper into their own darkness, many that I was seeking to help in their healing and work toward change, yet I also found an equally intense love for the purity of their intent and perceived that the shadows only so often came from mutual misunderstandings. When I tried to connect to the thought of negative densities and my desire to be elsewhere, I felt heartbroken with a strong sense that it is the home I have always known, that I am hurting many brothers that had found comfort in me, that I will put to waste a lot of effort I have put into them.

More than having been negative in my near past, I felt like I tried to serve those who still sought to be negative while giving them what they could need to overcome those desires. As such I took part in negtive groups always hoping my contribution would ultimately lead others to dwell less in darkness and make them lose the desire to spread it. I wanted to make those who could seek understanding, to feel understood.

I don't think I have truly been negative within this world and feel quite in harmony with it. I've had one glimpse of my lifetime in the time of Atlantis, which was of a negative setting, I remembered a chimera-like animal in a cage, that was confused and fearful and in which I identified myself. I remembered going to it and stretching my hand while it just bit into it. I remember not being phased by it and instead longly staring into it's eyes until it let go to instead lick the wound it had given me. I remembered preventing it from being killed later on because of that event and also sleeping within it's cage many many times, just as this act being disliked by others. I felt like this had been a great source of comfort for me in that lifetime.