10-08-2010, 04:19 PM
Sorry to hear about the difficulties. I've had somewhat similar experiences, in a general sense. In my case, there was a long running theme of people being angry at me. This went on for years and to some degree still does.
Although some of these people are more or less emotionally unstable, in the long run all the fingers pointed back to me. That is, it turns out that they, in self defense, reflect my own anger which is obvious to everyone but me.
Returning to your present situation, I'm not suggesting that these folks are acting out your own nastiness. But I am trying to hint that there might be some sort of internal reason for the intense theme in outward life, something which might be quite present, yet entirely invisible to you.
You might try giving yourself some time to clear your screen, relax and ask your guidance to intimate the nature of the lessons that you're currently struggling to learn.
Don't expect a straightforward answer. If you were ready for that, you'd probably have it by now. Rather, expect to be guided obliquely. Therefore, as you follow what you're given, don't just look straight ahead. Look all around for clues. Expect the least expected because, again, if were obvious, you'd know it already.
Chances are excellent that the lessons have to do with something you don't want to know about. But that's good. It means they trust you to move further into your own little world of darkness and light a wee candle.
Sorry to have rambled so much. I wish you happy adventures.
Although some of these people are more or less emotionally unstable, in the long run all the fingers pointed back to me. That is, it turns out that they, in self defense, reflect my own anger which is obvious to everyone but me.
Returning to your present situation, I'm not suggesting that these folks are acting out your own nastiness. But I am trying to hint that there might be some sort of internal reason for the intense theme in outward life, something which might be quite present, yet entirely invisible to you.
You might try giving yourself some time to clear your screen, relax and ask your guidance to intimate the nature of the lessons that you're currently struggling to learn.
Don't expect a straightforward answer. If you were ready for that, you'd probably have it by now. Rather, expect to be guided obliquely. Therefore, as you follow what you're given, don't just look straight ahead. Look all around for clues. Expect the least expected because, again, if were obvious, you'd know it already.
Chances are excellent that the lessons have to do with something you don't want to know about. But that's good. It means they trust you to move further into your own little world of darkness and light a wee candle.
Sorry to have rambled so much. I wish you happy adventures.