A strange path

[Jade]

Truly STS/STO is in itself both positive vs negative. But i feel like I am both together. Wanting to do both.

Hey Rax0r, thanks for sharing your thoughts, your story is interesting.

The feeling of being both STS and STO is natural. STO is actually better thought of as "service to all", including your self. It is the path of equalizing the balance of energy among all others (the collective best for everyone). Service to self is serving self at the expense of others (consequences are only considered insofar as they impact the self).

So if there was a pile of money, the STO being would say, "Everybody gets an equal share." The STS being would say, "I deserve more than the others."

A lot of people are under the confusion that STO means you serve others at the expense of self, and that is actually not true. That is an unbalanced act of martyrdom and is no better or more balanced than serving self at the expense of others.

We might more accurately call them the path of energy equalization, and the path of energy absorption.

Building upon what anagogy has said...

There are two paths to achieving "balance": through the open heart, or deliberately avoiding the open heart.

The first thing I really focused on in the Ra teachings was learning what Ra has to say about chakras, and blockages. If the red/root chakra is unblocked, energy can move up to the orange/sacral chakra, then to the yellow/solar plexus, then to the ~green/heart~, then blue/throat and finally indigo/pineal. Balance comes through careful and deliberate activation/unblocking of the chakras, in order as much as possible. An STS harvestable individual has to reach the indigo without the heart chakra, which is very difficult. An STO individual usually has to navigate within the depths of the heart chakra, usually in the land of martyrdom, before they find their way to the indigo ray. These are the main "difficulties" of the two paths through third density.