Zoomed out a bit too far

[Minyatur]

The way I came to understand this is that even in what is closest to nothingness, we still are, and as such there is an eternal and infinite observation of being "nothing". No form, no conception of self, no conception of the possibility of others, no conception of love, no conception of light, etc. This timeless and spaceless observation of nothing coalesces into an eternal desire of something, because even in the absence of any quality we can attribute to infinity, beingness remains. This infinite and eternal desire is the first distortion which finds infinite focuses within what could've been thought as empty but which never was truly empty. Will energizes/manifests what was seemingly void.

These are further thoughts I had about this, I think there is the possibility that the same many-ness we experience within manifested infinity also exists within un-manifested infinity and that the first distortion is the unified desire of this many-ness. This is why we are "born" in different time and space, each of our free will is a fragment of the first distortion and reflect a unique facet of the Great Will. Unified we are Intelligent Infinity but each of us is a unique desire of a particular fractal of this intelligence. Much like how our Logos becomes the focus of Love and creates this Octave, in another time and space (another creation) each of us probably are the Logos focused upon the original thought which is closest to the essence that is the core of our individuality in every Octaves of experience you will move through.

tl;dr : the first distortion is a unified desire with infinite facets born from an eternal obervation of an absence/lack of these facets. With/without are ever contained within the Source in a unified manner as both states ever are contained in the other.