nobody knows me

[Chandlersdad]

This just came to a rather abrupt end over a month ago. But no one here said what to me seems obvious. When a person is extremely depressed, they are in a state of mind that is very hard to heal from within that state. I was there and I know. The depression just became worse and worse, regardless of all the pep talks and New Age bromides.

Dog Star, unless your depression just lifts on its own, you need to get help. Go to a family doctor and tell him your mental state. If he tries to just dump anti-depressants on you, persevere and ask if he can refer you to a good therapist. In our for-profit medical system (which the rest of the world finds insane) it can cost a lot of money to see a psychiatrist, but this is the only person who has the training to properly medicate you and engage you in talk therapy (or refer you to a psychologist). Depression is extremely treatable, but not all alone. It is a disease of the mind. You need some sort of interaction with a trained person who is sincere and will listen, learn and work with you.

It is worth it. I went from very suicidal (I had a plan all worked out) to a reasonably normal human being. I still wonder if the voice inside urging me to kill myself was just a defect of the brain or if it was an Orion thought transmission or some sort. I will never know.