09-30-2016, 07:35 PM
(09-30-2016, 05:24 PM)OpalE Wrote:(09-29-2016, 10:06 PM)IndigoGeminiWolf Wrote: Maybe I'm just scared of receiving what I desire. It is the unknown after all.
I think I'm going to meditate more on it. That seems to accelerate things.
I think i've read what you want elsewhere in these forums.
The path(s) to such a goal, i think, are very personal in nature. They'd require working within your own blocks and limitations as much as possible, while moving towards outgrowing them at the same time.
I'm not aware of "what you know" or how you think about things, but seems to me that the first step is hidden in your tagline:
"You can only be what you are."
(The following is based on the words i see you using repeatedly. If i'm misinterpreting what they mean to you, then it probably doesn't apply. Figured it's worth a shot, though)
If i were in your ... ?shoes? ... ?paws?, I would -- firstly -- shift the way i think about it, i.e.:
It's not an external thing to be desired and brought to the self, it's already a part of the self to be expressed as fully as possible. I think what you're calling "desire" isn't what it seems to be; that you feel you ARE something, but don't see outward evidence that this is already true. (Similar to the way the 'positive' presence of the dead is -- more often than not -- misinterpreted, and replaced with the 'negative' feeling that they are absent, thus 'missed' and longed for.)
Think and feel inward in relation to this idea instead of outward. If you have to feel it as "desire," then point the desire inward; energize it inside the self instead of casting a call for it to come to you from without. When you see the goal, see and feel it inside as a thing already complete to be expressed instead of "something that isn't" or "something out of reach."
You post a lot about meditation. If you have experienced the kind of deep trance that .. ?nullifies? (?makes irrelevant?) awareness of the 'physical' body and surroundings, then i believe your goal is much more within reach than you realize, especially if you can already trigger this state intentionally / at will.
If i'm misinterpreting what you're talking about (or how you're talking about it), just ignore this![]()