Meditation - am I blocking myself or being blocked?

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This is mildly embarrassing. I quite like meditation. I know it's good for me and while I only started a year ago I fell into it very naturally. First time i tried and every time since I immediately got total silence no thoughts and never struggled with gaining that inner quiet.

I had several very useful visions within the first month without trying and then basically I have since been unable to meditate for more than a few minutes.

I have no ADHD tendencies yet when I sit to meditate I get instant silence like maybe it's almost to easy then after a few minutes I get an out of character surge to go do things be busy like it almost seems like a subconscious aversion to continue. No idea why.

It's been going on a year.
Anyone else experience this? I like quiet and sitting still so this shouldn't be an issue and I want that communication I have had but it's like I stop before it can happen almost like I'm subconsciously doing it on purpose.

Any ideas? am I hiding from messages, afraid their will be none? Or am I being led to not meditate? It's so out of character and consistent I'm wondering what is behind this compusion.