Meditation - am I blocking myself or being blocked?

[sjel]

I'm guessing it is a subconscious aversion to "the next step." The first step, finding silence, was easy for you. But there are infinite levels beyond the silence. The silence simply is a prerequisite for attaining the deeper wisdom/love. So I think you are sitting at the doorway of a great and powerful experience, but you aren't yet ready for it.

I haven't yet achieved full silence like you have, so I may be very off here. But this was my instinctual response, so I went ahead with it anyway