10-05-2016, 11:35 AM
The first month that was given to you without trying was a gift of "what could be". Now, you have to utilize and develop your will to reach into that experience again. The quiet, still mind with visions is not what most meditations are about, I assure you as someone who has meditated almost every day for three years now. Most meditations involve chatter. The development and use of the will is to sit through and persevere even through the chatter. I also suggest you ignore any thoughts about this being a sign to not meditate - we're all supposed to meditate. Keep at it!!