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[Infinite Unity]

There is this question in my heart/mind that I cant put my finger on.

Its not "is any of this real" because that is certainly not the real question (pun entirely intended)

Nor is it any kind of physical construct shape (I consider myself to be fully versed in the nearby local physics. distant i get the more bizzare it gets but for my "near space" i'm quite content with what i know)

ITs not the "is this the real life, is this just fantasy" emotion.

Its this abstract kind of... "wasnt there supposed to be a party, how can i have a party alone?"

Anyone else get what I mean about this?

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Edit: While we're at it:

In my own opinion you will always be "you." Learning, growing, and wandering through the creation. I feel like the creator made you, me, or this manyness for a reason. So we wouldnt have to be alone. Us being Infinite is a gift/product of The One Infinite, being...Infinite. I no longer prescribe to the paradigm of the manyness actually being the creator. I do believe we are all connected. The creator is our Father/Mother. I no longer want to be the creator. I wish to be like my father/Mother. I think alot of people here are missing the mark because they actually believe they are the one infinite. I would say you are...but you arent. Free will in my opinion is an eternal gift. I do believe we are eternal, and can reach logos level. I believe we do return to the creator like Ra said, However I still believe your "you." Then you leave the creator and return to the octaves, as you.