Trouble with my romantic relationships

[Ali Quadir]

I very much doubt you are physically not enough for these women. I'm not an expert on how women see men of course, but in my experience they value different things than looks. And in spite of the stereotype, so do we men. Even if it's on the list of important things we look for. In the end we all want someone who makes us feel good and whom we admire. Looks help in that but we'd sooner sacrifice looks than the good feeling. Also it doesn't seem like you have much trouble attracting them. If they were truly put of by your looks then I think the relationship would end before it even starts because that's something you know upon first putting eyes on someone. (unless you're drunk at the time)

As a side note. The two examples of why they left that you gave indicate to me that you should be more critical of the women in your life. You can not have a unconditional relationship with all women. Because you clearly need someone who is steady and faithful. Which are in my opinion very fair demands to make.

You keep asking if maybe it'd be better for you to focus on your spiritual life. Maybe this is the issue? Do you believe a romantic life contradicts a spiritual life, or is in any way unbecoming or guilt inducing? I don't see any reason why you could not meditate or grow spiritually inside a relationship. To my mind this is your choice. I personally don't believe in renunciation.