(09-10-2010, 01:39 AM)Chett Wrote: Hi I haven't posted here in a while, mostly a bit caught up in my own things but I think I may need a bit of help. First off I have never considered myself a 'wanderer', it didn't click with me, never experienced most of those things people who are wanderers do. I do have a contact with my future self/guide ..something I have never been able to pin down but its a definite presence that has helped me, from whom I have felt love.
So, the problem. Lately the thought keeps coming at me that I need to 'go home' (and no not some earthly location I once lived). It overwhelms me, actually makes me feel good - happy about it. Most of the time my guide is completely silent on the subject, no response at all. Once in a while I do get a sense of 'no, you still have work to do'. Unfortunately I have no clue what work I still have to do, and I get no answers or even clues when I ask. (I have tried meditation, lucid dreaming, simply asking for dream guidance and so forth).
The whole situation is wearing me down, the only time I feel good these days is when I contemplate going home.
Perhaps...the IAM that is within you...is needing you to awaken to the true self of you...which is not separate at all from others...it is the ALL of everything, that fills all life. It is the part of you without beginning and end.
Home, is within you, the kingdom, is within.
We all have a higher self...but this only takes us so far. There comes a time where we have to abandon the path of self and accept the IAM that is the ONE and ONLY true self of all of us. We, are, One.
I had to discover, that I came here, to remember this.
In turn, may path is different then the many seeking ascension. I offer back myself to Thee...to be of use, where ever it best suits, the IAM within all.
Maybe, this is why you came here too.
Only suggestions....for 'home' through ascension, only resonated with me for a short while. Many things happened that forced me to think beyond what I was learning through others.
As I found myself on the edge of a black hole...in the need of a choice....I chose to stay...not seeking a 'home' outside or beyond 'me'. This led me to understanding, the IAM within me, the most truest self of me, and growing into this true nature of me as well. When I discovered this, I couldnt help but to wonder, how did I ever forget, what I was.
The majority, think they know the true self...but if they are seeing their true self as 'separate' from others...they are not ready to face certain things or let go of the illusion of being a 'individual'. This...is OK...we all must walk this path of self until we understand that we still hunger for something we have not found or understood yet. Many say they understand that 'we are one'....but I can confess that there was a long time I thought I understood this, I thought I was truly on the path of service to others...and discovered, this was part of my own illusion my self (separate self) created and desired.
Best intentions,
Lynette