04-16-2017, 03:07 AM
I've been conflicted lately.
I love this world, truly, but it's like an apple full of worms. Then, I'm obliged to eat this rotting apple and give thanks for it. I kind of want to just leave it all behind. I know I can't though, there are still people who need me, crying out with tears in their eyes, "Please don't let me die". Beautiful people, naive and misguided people. I don't even know how to help them, or if they can even be helped. For some, I want nothing more than to sit back and watch them destroy themselves. I don't want to give them love any more than I want to give love to a hookworm or a malaria infestation. Worthless parasites.
My heart is broken. My throat is choked. I'm tired.
Peace be with you.
I love this world, truly, but it's like an apple full of worms. Then, I'm obliged to eat this rotting apple and give thanks for it. I kind of want to just leave it all behind. I know I can't though, there are still people who need me, crying out with tears in their eyes, "Please don't let me die". Beautiful people, naive and misguided people. I don't even know how to help them, or if they can even be helped. For some, I want nothing more than to sit back and watch them destroy themselves. I don't want to give them love any more than I want to give love to a hookworm or a malaria infestation. Worthless parasites.
My heart is broken. My throat is choked. I'm tired.
Peace be with you.
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