How are y'all doin these days

[Coordinate_Apotheosis]

I'm flat out the most depressed right now than I have ever been.

I realize now that my greatest dream is impossible. Well my only dream.

But not just that. My brain chemicals feel all whack. I'm sluggish, dizzy, nauseous.

But I don't feel sick at all. I still have energy.

Even my dog who I adore doesn't really cheer me up.

Definitely depression, but don't worry Gemini, you'll always be a good boy regardless of your body.
The machine of man, run by anthro software in mind.  Maybe in a way Gemini, your dream is already true, just not on a bodily level, but mentally.  Just a speculation that I hope cheers you up a bit.

I've been conflicted lately.

I love this world, truly, but it's like an apple full of worms. Then, I'm obliged to eat this rotting apple and give thanks for it. I kind of want to just leave it all behind. I know I can't though, there are still people who need me, crying out with tears in their eyes, "Please don't let me die". Beautiful people, naive and misguided people. I don't even know how to help them, or if they can even be helped. For some, I want nothing more than to sit back and watch them destroy themselves. I don't want to give them love any more than I want to give love to a hookworm or a malaria infestation. Worthless parasites.

My heart is broken. My throat is choked. I'm tired.

Peace be with you.

My old account, The_Tired_Philosopher was a homage to my hypothyroidism...  I am...Always tired.  Always, and a groggy tired like I just woke up, that fogginess of a drowsy mind.  Even when on levothyroxin, I was tired by depression.

I would suggest infringingly to zoom in on you and out of the big picture you are in.  Every picture has tons of pictures within it, it just depends on where, how closely, and how specifically you look at the picture.

Think optical illusion, its a perspective trick.

Don't perspective trick yourself, zoom in now and then and just focus on you alone.

The world isn't going anywhere, not for another 100+ years anyway.  Love yourself you juicy mango overlord O: