If you activate your green-ray too early, how do you repair the damage?

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(1) Your path is that of the mystic.
This is a good book: https://www.amazon.com/Mysticism-Nature-...ref=sr_1_1
 
As is Dark Night of the Soul by St John of the Cross. (Though it is written through a Christian theological lens that is not always easy to translate.)

 
Gary, thank you so much for the recommendation of the Mysticism book and .. even bringing that 'idea of a mystic' to the table because I have never looked into it before either, it's a foreign word for me.

I checked out that book last night and I found paragraph after paragraph of resonation & validation. Wow, the Dark Night of the Soul chapter was so much "my journey explained in a much more succinct way". I took so many notes I nearly copied the whole chapter. And even though I was perusing the book quickly last night because I wanted to glean what it was about, I did a search for "love" and found so many different paragraphs that I recognize in myself too. I almost feel like, every video I've done whilst trying to explain to others what I was experiencing (with the hope of catching the attention of ANYONE that was experiencing the same thing as me, but not finding anyone that I could go left-field with), but each video I did, was me expressing the experiences that these mystics in that book were experiencing with a mainstream-overlay. I really think that book you recommended is a must-read for anyone that's gone through what I have. Wow. Thank you.

Haven't found the other one but I'll have a look.

(2) Doubt can be tortuous. In that state you cut yourself off from potential inspiration, insight, nurture, sustenance, wholeness, well-being, power to act, sense of rightness, etc.
 

Re: The Doubt.
That's why everything screwed up but at the same time, if I had kept my faith at that time, when it was leading me into some kind of delusion I guess.. it was leading me straight into harm's way. I don't know to describe it but I do think that I had to stop everything before being murdered or seriously harmed by them because of what was transpiring. But yeah... I was "too big for my boots" in way where I thought I was ready for the truth of the universe and really overly-confident in my readiness for more (for EVERYTHING), and really wasn't ready at all.. now I let life unfold at it's own pace, baby-step-by-baby-step

 

(3) Bringing higher energy into the system will magnify/exacerbate pre-existing blockages and imbalances. For a time one may be able to draw upon that energy, or bring it through from intelligent infinity, in a way that bespeaks the qualities of the illumined state of consciousness (e.g., all is well, I am loved, each is the Creator, there is only service, etc.), but the fault lines in the system will make themselves known.
 

re: but the fault lines in the system will make themselves known.
Lol, oh how I could write a book on that paragraph after this experience

 

Like others in this thread, I feel that you were vaulted up to a place of spiritual vision for which you were not entirely prepared. (As I say in the podcast, I think you did more than activate the green-ray.) That does not mean that your former experience of spiritual identity was invalid or wrong, just that there were more fundamental imbalances and blockages that require your attention. There is more work to do. 

Totally agree that I wasn't prepared - definitely humbled me and broke all delusions of grandeur lol.
Can't wait for the podcast .. what day does it come out? I downloaded them all the other day and it's what I listen to when I'm driving and when on breaks at work, etc. I love it, I resonate with every single podcast, it's like.. you are "my kind of people" with the conversations you have. What a blessing to be able to do that each week. I've been trying to #FindTheOthers.. others that I can talk to as freely as you guys do about the topics that interest me.