If you activate your green-ray too early, how do you repair the damage?

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Which isn't to say that there is no novelty, or nothing new to discover. Just that we can glean guidance from those who have walked the difficult road before us.

I think this would've taken me decades more if I hadn't of found the IChing when I did. I trusted noone, especially not myself or any "guidance". I turned everything off and shut everyone out and was just left with my crazy "none of this can be real, I must be the crazy delusional one" and anyone else that agreed with me that I must be nuts.

Fortunately near the very the start of my own absolutely bewildering death of an old identity and birth of a new, I had the Law of One (and other helpful sources) as a guiding companion. Not that such sources ever eliminated personal confusion, but they've helped to form a sturdy framework and foundation within which to proceed forward. And have helped to keep the guiding north star visible.

I'm getting into The Wanderer's Handbook lately and want to re-read the Law of One from a calmer perspective (rather than a "rush to advance" perspective as I was previously... when I was trying to injest all the knowledge of everything at once and I couldn't get it all fast enough lol.. from listening to mp3s/podcasts/doco's etc all through the night and while I was driving and reading books at the same time. I trusted my mind would kinda figure it all out and put everything in place and the "truth will be revealed". No wonder my mind went cross-eyed trying to organize the info. I was also in conspiracy groups and we were exploring our various perspectives about how the world works. Yeah. There is no race (but it felt like it was a race at the time for some reason).

I noticed the tape recordings of the channellings of the Law of One are available, but if they are just "one-word-at-a-time" that might be hard to listen to? Have they also been converted into audible books somewhere? I remember listening to some of them on youtube.

I absolutely applaud your initiative and fearlessness in sharing and documenting your experience as it unfolds for the benefit of others similarly (seemingly) lost.

I started creating the videos because I wanted practice because I was about to launch my online business lol. I never in a million years expected the subject to change the way that it did, or that I would be talking about mental illness or that I would still be posting videos asking "what the heck happened to me"... but it's been useful for killing off my ego and completely ruining my reputation-to-the-world, but also for going back and referring to and going "wow.. I really did believe that didn't I?".. if there was no "video evidence" of what I was going through, I wouldn't of believed it because each time you "upgrade", you don't really understand "past-self" as much. It's also how I can clearly see that I do care what others think - I do get my 'validation' from external sources.

It is a precarious position to be in, and I believe many don't find their way to guidance and subsequently end up in mental institutions, or jail, or distorted in some way.

Agreed. I kinda thought I might find sanctuary in such places, except that I don't like others controlling my freedom lol or choosing my food or telling me when to sleep and wakeup, or giving me prescription drugs, etc. But the "getting away from society" and being "free to be my crazy" would've been nice.

I believe that if this world offered more reliable and fully accessible service to guide the awakening soul into full realization of who they are, virtually every awakening could transpire relatively safely for the person.

When I "had answers", before the Dark Night. I honestly thought that I should go to all those places and free everyone. I didn't think they were crazy at all and I wanted to talk to them about what they saw and encourage them. hehe. I'm not up to that task anymore.

Lack of discernment is a serious issue.

Yep. I thought my 'unconditional love' lens was my mission. It was actually really difficult to un-knot this belief. I was so convinced. The IChing helped me most. And then "seeing myself" through other people's eyes, and seeing others "too loving". But I still kinda think that the only reason I want to get away from those people is because I've moved down a few densities. Like there was some part of me that thought that while I was in that state, that it was right. But when I became dark and negative, anything "light" and "loving" or "too much" became a source of annoyance to me.. and I wanted them to calm down too. On the plus side, that made me calm down more and there's so much healing that has been done. On the down side, this world would've been beautiful in that state hehe. When I was in it, I saw a heaven on earth. Not able to see that now and sometimes that feels wrong, and sometimes I feel way more stable because of it. It's hard to figure it out because both feels true (which is why the density thing kinda matches).

But I also wonder whether me "merging" energies with that guy... someone with sinister intentions towards me (and me being oblivious to that).. maybe there is something to that. That there is some kind of energy exchange where whatever is attached to them.... I don't know what to believe. My logical brain doesn't want to go there. My crazy brain really wants to know what happened.

I wish I knew how it really worked, what really happened, which truth is truth.

I've also explored things like um, what was it.. "Alien Love Bite", which was exactly what I experienced. She was talking about the same thing but she uses that term. Maybe there is some "other thing" that is doing this, but then it still stems from these weaknesses within. Are all these other people with their ideas "wrong" or are they just interpreting things in the best way they can understand.

I just want truth? lol

When that higher voltage energy (or increased spiritual vision) flows into the system, it will inevitably magnify pre-existing distortions, blockages, and imbalances within the system. Such that - unless the self has been rendered sufficiently transparent and humble, able to walk its path in a stable and balanced way - that increased energy can, as you indicate, go to the head. : ) Ones evaluations of one's role, or abilities, or identity can become, shall we say, inflated.

That definitely happened, wish it wasn't a "hindsight" lesson. lol. But then maybe that's why everything went the way that it went, or maybe there was no "meant to be" anything, but what unfolded was that particular lesson. And now I want to make sure I've done the work, but sometimes I also wonder if I'm always constantly looking for weaknesses and vulnerabilities and holes and traumas and pain... like constantly living a life of "shadow work" because I am fearful of this ever happening again, and I want to get back in touch with the closed-heart/seat of my soul.

Austin publishes it to the archive website every other Wednesday. So I think next Wednesday (Aug 16) is the next publication date. I'm surprised you can listen to us that much. I feel like we just dryly ramble on. : ) Glad you're finding something helpful in it!

That's too long to wait lol. Especially when you know it's already recorded hehe

Yeah I can listen that much because it resonates with my soul, and it's a subject I don't get to talk about in my daily life with anyone. If I bring this up, it's um.. "weird". I need new friends. lol.