*OLD THREAD*: Submitting Questions for "In the Now - Q&A with Carla L. Rueckert"

[xlsander]

Just wanted to let everyone know, in case they're wondering, that we will be having a radio show this Friday (day after Thanksgiving) like normal. Now accepting questions!

I read through the Law of One - and I have been through a lot of other spiritual body of work too - and I do realize everything that happens to me is a mirror of my deeper inner self and the "bag I packed" for this incarnation. Still I seem to have been brought into a situation (catalyst/contract) where an I am am not in a position to get out of the situation anymore (without hurting and disappointing everyone who loves me in this life) and on top am facing an inner urge which is very huge - say a souls call to strive for something certain where I repeatedly find myself in reoccurring dramas and disasters and its draining a lot - to a point i had given up on actually wanting to persist in this incarnation more than once.

I know I am loved - I know am not alone - I know I chose that for myself and contracted this - but I don't seem to get the point at all
to actually why just remain here and deal with this with no lesson learned...other than pain as result to following the best intentions for others and oneself

though I try to balance and to remain in the moment - be the best I can be and manage expectations - seek the love in the moment to finally understand what it is that I am doing "not right" so this is happening over and over and over again - how can i focus more particularly on finding out the reason for reoccurring catalyst and to finally get the lesson straight to make progress I am so so much longing for... ???

If it wasn't for the deeply in me seeded urge that actually makes me strive for something I would just relax and let anything be - but this constant paradox of urge vs disappointment and non ability to achieve
the urge or at least make significant progress towards it - can you shed some light on this from your point of view?

thank you for all your work and the forum here without it I'd probably had been back to the other side to space/time

in love alex