I has cancer

[JayCee]

So I got diagnosed with cancer last week. It is already the second diagnosis, I did not believe the first one because I was feeling so good and that all is well.
I am starting to believe the diagnosis now bc I have also seen the pics and yet still I feel good most of the time.
I was thinking, why ?
Well, I am feeling good because still all is well, no matter the cancer or whatever else. All is unfolding as it should.
I am in a state of euphoria, life is so intense, every day is different. I live in the moment and start talking to people if I feel like it. I don't even care anymore if I cross my aunt in the street (the one who hates me) And it is easier now to practice my spiritual stuff, it is like the cancer has made me less matter-oriented.
It reminds me a bit of the situation when my mum died, there are similarities plus many synchronicities are popping up.
All I can say I am so grateful!
(There are other days of course, I was really down on the weekend when I saw the kids, all of a sudden I was afraid of death and not seeing them grow up anymore.)
I recieved a sentence last week, it fell into my head "cancer is the ailment of kings."
I know this had to happen, but well I believe in fate and surrender anyways.
I want to share something that one of my non-duality teachers said "what if your attitude towards cancer was not one of fear and dread, but one of actually welcoming it? what would happen then?"
No matter what happens in your life, no matter what situation you are in, please don't start believing that it is bad, or that fate has dealt you an unfair hand.
It is not the situation that causes problems, it is our attitude.
That is the choice we always have.
Well after all, it is a ride, isn't it?
And no one survives it, anyways (that is what I told the doc when I asked what was the worst thing that could happen and he replied "you could die". I said "no one gets out of here alive")