I has cancer

[Stranger]

No seriously, thank you for the suggestions and the catalyst but I am not a Ra fan, never have been. I rather (RA-ther, haha) go with Ra-manas advice....
"take out the trash. It is not necessary to dissect it and do a thorough analysis, just throw it out and be done with it"

Unfortunately, there is no way to take out the trash without first picking it up, looking at it, and putting it in the trash bag.

Unless we're willing to handle our trash, we end up just sweeping it under the rug where it stays and stinks up our lives.

Leaving the metaphor now - it's essential to be willing to face our negative emotions, befriend them without letting them run our lives, and heal them through loving and comforting the aching, upset parts of ourselves they represent.  Only then can the negative emotional charge be permanently released from our being, and we feel lighter and freer.