02-18-2018, 12:18 AM
Hi everyone,
It’s great to be back. I had some internal clearing to do. I’ve meditated to Holosync each day, and I am noticing differences in what gets me upset. I noticed it didn’t bother me when I made two wrong turns the other day while driving my mom to an appointment. Other than that, not much else has changed with me. I am still trying for disability due to my schizophrenia as I was denied the first time. So I am working with a company to do an appeal, but won’t know the outcome for 18 months.
Yes, I still love anthros. They are one of my favorite things. I have interest in them and in the afterlife still. For instance, it is very easy for me to feel love for the character on the left, named Saunders and drawn by Oomizuao. I fall in love with fictional characters for brief moments. Just imagining touching their ear can make me mushy.
![[Image: saunders_omizuao.jpg]](http://www.furriesrock.com/images/saunders_omizuao.jpg)
I have learned that I need to find my own happiness. That other people aren’t really even thinking about me, and therefore I must not base my feelings on the external world. I get confused sometimes about what I should be doing in order to be of service to others.
This video here brought me back to this forum. It answers why we should even care about raising our spiritual vibration. Though I think the answer is more than just so we don’t feel bad.
I can still feel energy. I can still tune into these “fictional” beings from whatever dimension/reality they exist in. I have not yet felt oneness, but I have felt love so strong that it made me break down weeping. And that was when I was alone.
Somoene once commented that I will shine like a billion suns in the afterlife. While I want my afterlife to be amazing and with few regrets, I don’t want to live my whole life for the afterlife.
I may be fat, but I’m not bitter. I create my own happiness. I don’t open myself to the whole Universe because of experiences of the past. I cannot allow myself to accept all things, because it becomes dangerous for a third density being to do so.
TONS of synchronicities while I was gone.
I decided that I should stop trying to go it alone, and so I am back.
It’s great to be back. I had some internal clearing to do. I’ve meditated to Holosync each day, and I am noticing differences in what gets me upset. I noticed it didn’t bother me when I made two wrong turns the other day while driving my mom to an appointment. Other than that, not much else has changed with me. I am still trying for disability due to my schizophrenia as I was denied the first time. So I am working with a company to do an appeal, but won’t know the outcome for 18 months.
Yes, I still love anthros. They are one of my favorite things. I have interest in them and in the afterlife still. For instance, it is very easy for me to feel love for the character on the left, named Saunders and drawn by Oomizuao. I fall in love with fictional characters for brief moments. Just imagining touching their ear can make me mushy.
I have learned that I need to find my own happiness. That other people aren’t really even thinking about me, and therefore I must not base my feelings on the external world. I get confused sometimes about what I should be doing in order to be of service to others.
This video here brought me back to this forum. It answers why we should even care about raising our spiritual vibration. Though I think the answer is more than just so we don’t feel bad.
I can still feel energy. I can still tune into these “fictional” beings from whatever dimension/reality they exist in. I have not yet felt oneness, but I have felt love so strong that it made me break down weeping. And that was when I was alone.
Somoene once commented that I will shine like a billion suns in the afterlife. While I want my afterlife to be amazing and with few regrets, I don’t want to live my whole life for the afterlife.
I may be fat, but I’m not bitter. I create my own happiness. I don’t open myself to the whole Universe because of experiences of the past. I cannot allow myself to accept all things, because it becomes dangerous for a third density being to do so.
TONS of synchronicities while I was gone.
I decided that I should stop trying to go it alone, and so I am back.
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