*OLD THREAD*: Submitting Questions for "In the Now - Q&A with Carla L. Rueckert"

[Pavel]

Hi Carla and Monica
I have been reading The Ra material for 3 months now. It realy resonates with me and i am grateful that i found it. I just signed up to the forums today and i have this question.

i have difficulty in being myself when i try to relate to others while trying to be true to the seeker side of me. in my daily life i do not show this side and am even embarrassed to show it.
i always seem to lose myself and cannot remember what it was i was intending to be or to talk about. actualy i have the same feeling right now, when i sat down to write this question i almost forgot what i wanted.
im thinking that i have somehow given up my personal power. and i dont know how to find it, because i dont want to become STS. (and then sometimes i even dont care and just want to have some strength) and how can i be of service to others when i dont feel that i can share anything when i feel so empty.
this feeling is not constant for me and i can even see the drama in the question, nevertheless i do feel it that strongly quite often.

i would like to hear your comment on this. thank you very much in advance and thank you for this show which i enjoy very much.