06-26-2018, 02:38 AM
(This post was last modified: 06-26-2018, 01:53 PM by AnthroHeart.)
(06-25-2018, 07:13 PM)IndigoGeminiWolf Wrote: The stuff I've been trying to achieve has involved hours of focusing.
Over days or weeks or even months, an hour or more each day.
Such as trying to feel the love of the Universe consistently.
What can we do if our mind just wanders through the day,
and we can't really focus for hours and hours like we need to?
Does the magic just not work then?
My reistance is so strong to things, that to change my programming
requires a lot of mental focusing.
(06-26-2018, 01:18 AM)Agua Wrote: Hey Indy
I dont know how exactly you are trying to reprogram, but if you' re trying to reprogram by affirmations or the like or creating "positive" images or energies instead of "negative" ones, then it is in the nature of things.
There is an internal conflict.
Lets say you are poor. That means, your outer reality reflects an energy inside of you that manifests in lack of money.
Then you want to change your outer reality.
If you do this by affirmations or focussing on the "positive", you still have the negative energy in you, and you always will.
The more to focus on the positive, the more resistance, either internally or externally builds up.
This is because of the conflict in you.
There is an energy in you, that leads to poverty. Unless you deal with that energy, discovering it, exploring it and ultimately healing it, you actually invest energy in the positive as well as in the negative.
But since you do not want to deal with the "negative", you are blind to it.
You are working in both directions at the same time, but you only perceive one direction.
The opposite direction is then perceived as resistance, but actually it is yourself working in the opposite direction.
In my opinion, this is a crucial part in all the reprograming and affirmation stuff.
I would even go further and say that without considering this, all attempts to reprogram and affirmations are ultimately useless and futile.
It can only be effective, if you take the counterforce into account!
(06-26-2018, 02:42 AM)IndigoGeminiWolf Wrote: I'm just "allowing" and surrendering in order to let the loving dominant nature of the Universe take over
by releasing resistance.
There has been negativity that has come up, and yes I've kind of brushed that aside.
I'm not afraid of clowns, but I keep seeing creepy ones with ugly teeth in my mind.
Like an evil IT. Ever since I saw a horror movie.
So looks like I've got some shadow work to do.
I do feel the Universe's love a little bit, but I want to reach the max love I can handle.
I was using energy shifting, by tuning into the Universe itself. At least the parts I am in vibration to.
And there's conflict with my mom and money.
So now I go and allow all things to be.
(06-26-2018, 03:33 AM)Agua Wrote: Dont be discouraged, my friend!
This whole "manifestation thing" as well as affirmations and re-programming is very often viewed only superficially!
We are manifesting ALL THE TIME!
It's just that we dont like what we manifest and so we seperate from it: "I did not manifest this, why should I?"
That "attitude" however puts us in a powerless position.
As long as we cannot acknowledge the fact that we manifested everything in our lifes, we cannot access our position of power or authority.
We ban what we dont like into the subconsciousness.
Then we have a conflict between our conscious wishes and our subconscious drives.
When there is a conflict between conscious and subconscious drives, the subconsciousness always wins. This is because usually only a few percent, maybe 5%, are conscious, the remaining 95% percent are unconscious.
So I recommend two steps:
1) taking full responsibility for everything that is inside and outside of you. Not in order to change it, but to realize what is your own influence!
Otherwise we feel powerless, since we believe there are things manifesting against our will!
2) find out step by step, what the counterforce wants. More often than not, the counterforce represents something very desirable, we just dont realize it. When you can "see" it, you will totally understand.
Then usually, but not before, you can find a solition that works for you. You wont need much focus anymore, because the counterforce is not working against you anymore.
Viewed from the outside it is often very obvious
Do you want me to give you a hint?
(06-26-2018, 10:40 AM)Agua Wrote: Concerning the hint:
I want to start with saying that I strongly believe this is a dynamic present in ALL of us!!
I am very familiar with this at least and seen it in many others...
Its always easier to see from the outside
Indy, I really believe you are much much much much closer to what you desire than you think!
But you are at the same time afraid of it, in fact obviously much more afraid of it than you desire it!
You are very close to those desired experiences and that is the problem
Remember that longer post and conversation a few weeks or months ago?
When you were afraid of losing your sanity?
It probably started with your ayahuasca experience, that opened a door to something that made you freak out, that was overwhelming to you.
You used ALL your power and strength to reject it.
You developed schizoid tendencies to seperate from it.
A couple of months ago it "returned". Your reaction was very similar.
You are deeply afraid of it. You use all your strength to supress it.
You manage to "close the door" again.
Then you forget that this ever happened.
After a while you miss it
Then you start pushing towards it again. You meditate, you engage in all kinds of practices and work hard to get "there" again.
Because you suppressed that all this happened, you dont remember it anymore.
You are blind to the intense fear it evokes in you.
So your working hard to open that door, while at the same time your (now unconscious) fear has to work hard against it!
The more your work on the "conscious side" the more the "unconscious side", the fear, has to work against it.
This sounds pretty exhausting!
What do you think which side will win?
Do you remember the intensity of that fear?
I could feel it even from what you wrote! And I know this fear!
Obviously, if you try to remember, this fear has a very very strong intensity.
It has much more intensity and energy than your attempts to "open the door" again.
Indy, you are much closer to where you wanna get than you believe!
Unlike many others here you dont have to work so hard to "get there", because actually you are ALREADY there in a way!
Your problem is, in my opinion, not "getting there", its much more accepting that you actually ARE there!
Most likely you would progress considerably faster if you keep this in mind and get ready to deal with the fear when it arises.
You would probably develop much faster if you do nothing at all and relax into what is already there!
You most likely cannot feel it at the moment, because you suppressed it so much.
But the more you relax into an allowing state of being, just relax into your body, you will be amazed how fast things develop!
Give it a try
If after a while of "not doing anything" (i mean no excessive spiritual work) you find you easily can handle it without problems, i would get together with a therapist or something and see if you could maybe slowly reduce the dosage of your meds. But please slowly and not without seeing a therapist!!
@Nautik: this is why I think pushing on focus and concentration is the wrong direction to go