"I am"

[Stranger]

UPDATE:

I tried it again, and here's what happened next.

I very effortlessly perceived the "driver" and moved past it to the "curious observer" layer, as described above.

Past that was the "ocean", as before - and I thought, maybe this is the "oceanic feeling" some writers have described when referring to a sense of awe from religion/spirituality. No matter, I moved past it.

Instead of anything to do with a spark (which, as I suspected, must have been my attempt to force my expectations onto the experience), this time I saw a naked male figure, like a 3D rendering from a game with quality set to a low setting - in the sense that the figure had very little detail; like an idealized smooth model of a human male. The figure seemed to have its eyes closed; was standing upright, motionless except for a continuous rotation around the vertical axis, like a video game character might at a selection screen. No expression or sign of life.

This was unexpected but I didn't puzzle over it much. Instead, I set everything about the figure aside as irrelevant and focused on the "me" inside it. What happened next did surprise me.

I experienced/perceived a powerful flame of energy continuously shooting forth from each of my chakra areas. It had no color, didn't look like fire, wasn't hot - "flame" just seems like the best word to describe it; it was definitely fiery in its shocking intensity. Each flame's shape was a cone with the narrow point at the chakra, shooting out upwards, and somehow blending into one strong flame but also remaining separate: I could shift my perception to see it either as one long conical flame across the chakras along the vertical axis of the body, or as multiple smaller conical flames from each chakra. Each was a continuous, shockingly powerful outpouring, like a flamethrower or the gushing of water from a fireman's hose.

It seemed primal and unintelligent, like a hurricane wind - it just does what it does and cares about nothing in its way. I felt a few blockages suddenly clear in my body.

I tried to "set it aside as irrelevant" as I had done with each layer before it, but somehow here that made no sense, like a logical impossibility. It was just there and there was nothing deeper. The force of the "flame" somehow seemed to blow the thought of "setting it aside" apart and away every time I tried to consider it, the same kind of feeling as when a strong gust of wind rips an umbrella out of your hands. Like, I would have had to fight the power of these flames to even attempt to seriously consider it (which was a very odd sensation).

So I just sat observing this experience, pleasantly fascinated. The fire(s) kept blowing. After a few minutes suddenly I was no longer aware of the fires but instead I was filled with a buzzing loving energy uniformly filling my body, which felt (sorry to be crude) like the mellow warmth of an orgasmic afterglow but without the sedation. I am still feeling it now as I type this; it's strong but not intrusive, a little electric and very pleasant.

Thus concludes Day 1 of my experiment. I haven't the foggiest what really occurred, but clearly a good thing.

(P.S. I want to be clear that no drugs or substances were involved in any way. I'm all for clean vegetarian living.)

So, there you have it. Whatever "it" is.

P.P.S. The guides have just said that this was me "connecting with the primal energies of my being and, by clearing out interference from the higher layers of my being, allowing them their full expression."

By "higher layers" they mean those more superficial/less primal layers that impede the full expression of our fundamental energies - i.e., our emotional distortions, etc.

I had "cleared out interference" from these by setting them aside as irrelevant, as described, and looking deeper at the remaining "me" within each layer.