10-22-2018, 05:52 PM
(10-22-2018, 05:39 PM)unity100 Wrote: Movies, reading books, computer games, dreams are good candidates for exploring as such.
Yeah, I think I took all the media I used to indulge in that was negative and started having MAJOUR problems with it once I got into LOO stuff. Like that Punisher short on Youtube: Dirty Laundry. Used to love it. Now it disturbs me to watch. I think I'm suppressing the parts of me that used to like negative s***. And I don't know how to handle it. Even stuff like Pantera songs I used to like, I have different feelings about now. And I guess the piece of me that enjoys them is still there, but the part of me that dislikes the negativity might be suppressing that aspect of myself.
I realized in my first night in the psyche ward that there was a disturbing part of me that wanted to fight people. I might have been scared and taking on the negative energy of people around me though. Once I got settled in, I didn't have that urge. Still, I decided that night, exploring MMA might be a good idea.
So I guess for anyone else who might be doing that, finding outlets and indulging them without so much suppression might be good. Just, how does one not overdo it?