04-30-2009, 06:39 PM
Thanks for reading :-D
I remember reading somewhere that good and bad are both part of creation, and thus part of the creator. the problem I am having is moving towards the light and choosing love, while not looking down at others who choose the opposite or who are not aware. I've been trying lately to accept the darkness with love, and to not judge their actions, or my less then perfect actions. For me at least, I have to learn how to accept the darkness within me, and love it. As well with the darkness in this world. Now in theory that sounds all gravy, however i'm having a hard time in practice lol. (I realize nothing comes easy)
I do believe I am a wanderer, but I believe everyone is. I think wanderers or whatever you want to call it just tend to be more aware of it(after years of of not knowing! ) then others. We all start wandering when we decide to not be like others.
I guess my question is how do you change and grow on this planet, without seeing yourself as separate?
Because I don't think I am separate from anyone else, and as much I want to hide in my room(which I still do a lot lol) I'm trying to have an unconditional love, and do you guys think that to have that to others, you have to love yourself as well?
Maybe physical ailments of all sorts(and I've been chronically sick since I was a baby) are a way for you to spread love, because by accepting all that is wrong with you(and clearly out of your control) and loving yourself nonetheless, you can love the world and those within it(even though a lot of it is not in your direct control :-D )
When it comes to change, my ego is having a slightly hard time. I want to connect with my peers, but find it hard when all they want to talk about is making money, getting that good job, ect ect, and spiritual matters are second hand. I've also found that I've made a choice to give up the body centric image, and my ego is rebelling. I find myself having two voices in my head.
And sometimes I just feel really depressed, because things seem so bad that I don't know when it will end.
I guess in the end all I can do is my best, smile, and when confronted with dark emotions or actions forgive myself, and others, and instead of holding those emotions within me as fear, I'll wash them over with love.
I've found that when I'm feeling really low and I just ask the universe to send me some love, and help me to realize my own inner light, I do. I get random phone calls, text messages, and online messages. The most beautiful of things will happen, like a bird will land right next to me and look at me, or I'll see little squirrels(which make me feel better)
has this happened to anyone else? and thanks for reading I know it's all over the place, but I have adhd so I can't seem to stay on one subject!
Peace, love, and acceptance :-D
I remember reading somewhere that good and bad are both part of creation, and thus part of the creator. the problem I am having is moving towards the light and choosing love, while not looking down at others who choose the opposite or who are not aware. I've been trying lately to accept the darkness with love, and to not judge their actions, or my less then perfect actions. For me at least, I have to learn how to accept the darkness within me, and love it. As well with the darkness in this world. Now in theory that sounds all gravy, however i'm having a hard time in practice lol. (I realize nothing comes easy)
I do believe I am a wanderer, but I believe everyone is. I think wanderers or whatever you want to call it just tend to be more aware of it(after years of of not knowing! ) then others. We all start wandering when we decide to not be like others.
I guess my question is how do you change and grow on this planet, without seeing yourself as separate?
Because I don't think I am separate from anyone else, and as much I want to hide in my room(which I still do a lot lol) I'm trying to have an unconditional love, and do you guys think that to have that to others, you have to love yourself as well?
Maybe physical ailments of all sorts(and I've been chronically sick since I was a baby) are a way for you to spread love, because by accepting all that is wrong with you(and clearly out of your control) and loving yourself nonetheless, you can love the world and those within it(even though a lot of it is not in your direct control :-D )
When it comes to change, my ego is having a slightly hard time. I want to connect with my peers, but find it hard when all they want to talk about is making money, getting that good job, ect ect, and spiritual matters are second hand. I've also found that I've made a choice to give up the body centric image, and my ego is rebelling. I find myself having two voices in my head.
And sometimes I just feel really depressed, because things seem so bad that I don't know when it will end.
I guess in the end all I can do is my best, smile, and when confronted with dark emotions or actions forgive myself, and others, and instead of holding those emotions within me as fear, I'll wash them over with love.
I've found that when I'm feeling really low and I just ask the universe to send me some love, and help me to realize my own inner light, I do. I get random phone calls, text messages, and online messages. The most beautiful of things will happen, like a bird will land right next to me and look at me, or I'll see little squirrels(which make me feel better)
has this happened to anyone else? and thanks for reading I know it's all over the place, but I have adhd so I can't seem to stay on one subject!
Peace, love, and acceptance :-D