It's time now to go home

[Brittany]

I can completely resonate with you on wanting to "go home" and even on feeling that I left someone very special to me behind in order to come here. I often get the feeling that I didn't "think things all the way through" when I volunteered for all of this, and I bit off more than I can chew, automatically thinking I would be great at it (pride) when in reality this planet has been extremely hard on both my physical and energy bodies, and I was much more green at this than I considered myself to be.

I suffer a great deal due to my extreme sensitivity, but I think a lot of it had to do with the fact that I didn't take into consideration exactly what was going to be involved with incarnating here. I was all gung-ho, thinking "I want to do this, and this, and this...and I want to take ALL my abilities WITH me...yeah, that would help a lot! I'm gonna save the world!" I can see my guides trying to get me to be more rational, but my enthusiasm made me deaf to their wisdom. It has been hard to forgive myself for this youthful foolishness, though I suppose it has been an interesting lesson. I'd probably do it again if I got the chance, because it's what's made me who I am, and I feel I have gained great wisdom in being here, even if things didn't go exactly how I planned.

Of course, I also want to help as much as possible. I'm not about to ditch this big ball of love I'm living on just because it's maybe a bit more than I expected. I'm not sure what I THOUGHT this mission would be like, but I'm in it now, and I'm going to do everything I can to be the brightest light possible.

I can also resonate with the "curiosity factor." I feel that if there was one personality trait that wasn't programmed into me by my childhood, previous incarnations or what have you, it is my curiosity and my intense thirst for knowledge. I just want to know EVERYTHING. I want to go absolutely everywhere and see all there is to see. I even want to explore the dark, nasty places because I love seeing and learning new things. I wouldn't be beyond saying I'm greedy in this area. My husband says I have a greed for power, because knowledge = power, and I always want more knowledge. I realize that there are downsides to unabashed curiosity, and that there are some things I'm just not meant to know right now, but I can totally see myself throwing my hand up going "OH! PICK ME! PICK ME! EARTH SOUNDS NEAT! I WANNA SEE IT!" Lol.

Basically, though, I'm not going to say I think you should go home or stay here. That is a decision that you have to make for yourself. I would just say to consider all your options, and make the decision out of the very core of your heart, and without shame. Only you can decide what is best for your soul.