I distinctly remember my puberty, and feeling like the sexual urges and tendencies were foreign.
Later realizing that my situation is not unique to get my first paranormal experience during such a turbulent time, with leading parapsychology theories suggesting puberty "opens a gateway".
Despite experiencing puberty and having these "forced thoughts" of the opposite gender, I didn't really act on them until much later, being completely naive. Not once did I masturbate for years, until my friend across the street had to explain a sexual joke to me by spelling it out for me. A strange handshake that I didn't get at all, much to his surprise.
I don't remember a struggle of internal wills before my first attempt at such a silly act.
It almost feels ritualistic.
I simply don't understand how sexual energies are supposed to be a part of us, and a part of our whole being, when I lived for years without needing them. I remember being much happier as a child than I ever was as an adult man.
I can care less for sexual urges if they are not inspired by sharing of love. So much of my sexual energies are entrained to get release first, and ask questions later.
I'd like to know if there are any reasons why we live without sexual appetite or energies influencing us just fine before puberty... and if there is any merit in abstaining. All of the wisdom I can find insists that acceptance is key, and I take it to mean that abandoning my sexual appetite and vices are externalizing rather than accepting them. I can trust that I'm a part of everything, but that doesn't mean in a literal sense in some cases. For example, while I believe it is good to see myself in all things and I do feel I contribute to a whole bigger than myself, but that doesn't mean I'll willfully give my body to house parasites or to nurse diseases to spread easier.
I have two questions regarding sexual energies:
What are you thoughts on them?
If you have abstained for a long period of time, did you see any harm in doing so?
Thank you.
Later realizing that my situation is not unique to get my first paranormal experience during such a turbulent time, with leading parapsychology theories suggesting puberty "opens a gateway".
Despite experiencing puberty and having these "forced thoughts" of the opposite gender, I didn't really act on them until much later, being completely naive. Not once did I masturbate for years, until my friend across the street had to explain a sexual joke to me by spelling it out for me. A strange handshake that I didn't get at all, much to his surprise.
I don't remember a struggle of internal wills before my first attempt at such a silly act.
It almost feels ritualistic.
I simply don't understand how sexual energies are supposed to be a part of us, and a part of our whole being, when I lived for years without needing them. I remember being much happier as a child than I ever was as an adult man.
I can care less for sexual urges if they are not inspired by sharing of love. So much of my sexual energies are entrained to get release first, and ask questions later.
I'd like to know if there are any reasons why we live without sexual appetite or energies influencing us just fine before puberty... and if there is any merit in abstaining. All of the wisdom I can find insists that acceptance is key, and I take it to mean that abandoning my sexual appetite and vices are externalizing rather than accepting them. I can trust that I'm a part of everything, but that doesn't mean in a literal sense in some cases. For example, while I believe it is good to see myself in all things and I do feel I contribute to a whole bigger than myself, but that doesn't mean I'll willfully give my body to house parasites or to nurse diseases to spread easier.
I have two questions regarding sexual energies:
What are you thoughts on them?
If you have abstained for a long period of time, did you see any harm in doing so?
Thank you.
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