01-26-2011, 05:52 PM
This might be your current path of service, as Jeremy said. Make something of it if you feel for it.
Regarding your immediate situation. Take two days off thinking about it. The first day imagine that you allready made one choice. Live in that choice, fully. The second day you "make another choice". Don't think like "no I can't do this" during these days, just live in it, as you've allready made the choice.
There are also one passive magic method to do it, but it needs a lot of faith and trust from you. Sit down in a chair. The best way to do it is after the sunset and when you are alone/undisturbed. You need to live in that fully and concentrate. Look at a chair next to you or across you and imagine that Someone sitting in that chair listnening to you. Someone who has the power to help you. Trust that and trust that Entity. Then you explain your ethical dilemma in a full detail. Remember that these Powers often do not listen that much to your words as to your thoughts. And as you explaining everything to It you uncover all your thoughts to your own consciousness, so it won't be any surprises later when you said one thing but thought something else and result was not quite as you expected it. But this method is on the other hand pretty "safe". Anyway, when you are done explaining everything (mostly to your consciousness) you ask humble for help. Explain that you can't make first or the second choice, and therefore you give up and trust that someone will help you. Don't forget to thank the Entity! Good advice in every situation like this is ending the contact by saying something like this: "When my wish will come true I don't want anyone to be deprived, or hurted, or caused any other disharmony". After that you can forget about it, but every time these thoughts cross your mind you have to put all your trust that your situation will be resolved. And you have to give up fighting, when trusting Higher Powers. Don't know if it might be something for you...?
Regarding your immediate situation. Take two days off thinking about it. The first day imagine that you allready made one choice. Live in that choice, fully. The second day you "make another choice". Don't think like "no I can't do this" during these days, just live in it, as you've allready made the choice.
There are also one passive magic method to do it, but it needs a lot of faith and trust from you. Sit down in a chair. The best way to do it is after the sunset and when you are alone/undisturbed. You need to live in that fully and concentrate. Look at a chair next to you or across you and imagine that Someone sitting in that chair listnening to you. Someone who has the power to help you. Trust that and trust that Entity. Then you explain your ethical dilemma in a full detail. Remember that these Powers often do not listen that much to your words as to your thoughts. And as you explaining everything to It you uncover all your thoughts to your own consciousness, so it won't be any surprises later when you said one thing but thought something else and result was not quite as you expected it. But this method is on the other hand pretty "safe". Anyway, when you are done explaining everything (mostly to your consciousness) you ask humble for help. Explain that you can't make first or the second choice, and therefore you give up and trust that someone will help you. Don't forget to thank the Entity! Good advice in every situation like this is ending the contact by saying something like this: "When my wish will come true I don't want anyone to be deprived, or hurted, or caused any other disharmony". After that you can forget about it, but every time these thoughts cross your mind you have to put all your trust that your situation will be resolved. And you have to give up fighting, when trusting Higher Powers. Don't know if it might be something for you...?