Hey hey. I am looking for some help please.
I used to battle premature ejaculation. When I have a partner and my sex life gets more regular it gets somehwat better, however, it is still often that its done in a few strokes. Actually it is set in my horoscope too, as Mars in Gemini in the house of Scorpio indicated this would be an issue.. Well, it is, and it makes me sad.
Anyway, this was part learned - I was living with my family in a small home when I was young, and when puberty hit, I always tried to get it done quickly, so I don't get caught with the deed hehe. I guess I wired this into myself.
I am practicing zazen a few years now. In the zendo someone brought a book in German, and I want to learn german, so I brought it home, started translating.. It was a book from Mantak Chia, and it got me interested in fixing this issue, so whenever I feel the sexual urges I tend to gratify from time to time, I expand these sessions to 25-30 mins.
I am not doing it solely for pleasure, as I want to fix something I see as not in great shape at the moment.
Anyway, here comes the weird/gross part, please bear with me.. I witnessed that whenever I do this, let's say once a week, next day flies are attracted to my room. I am physically clean of course and don't "mess", so I tend to think this is something energetical..
Do you think this is a hint from the Creator that I shouldn't be doing what I am doing, or depolarizing, or releasing gross energies? I also had issues earlier in my sexual relationships with being haunted / breached by negative entities...
I used to battle premature ejaculation. When I have a partner and my sex life gets more regular it gets somehwat better, however, it is still often that its done in a few strokes. Actually it is set in my horoscope too, as Mars in Gemini in the house of Scorpio indicated this would be an issue.. Well, it is, and it makes me sad.
Anyway, this was part learned - I was living with my family in a small home when I was young, and when puberty hit, I always tried to get it done quickly, so I don't get caught with the deed hehe. I guess I wired this into myself.
I am practicing zazen a few years now. In the zendo someone brought a book in German, and I want to learn german, so I brought it home, started translating.. It was a book from Mantak Chia, and it got me interested in fixing this issue, so whenever I feel the sexual urges I tend to gratify from time to time, I expand these sessions to 25-30 mins.
I am not doing it solely for pleasure, as I want to fix something I see as not in great shape at the moment.
Anyway, here comes the weird/gross part, please bear with me.. I witnessed that whenever I do this, let's say once a week, next day flies are attracted to my room. I am physically clean of course and don't "mess", so I tend to think this is something energetical..
Do you think this is a hint from the Creator that I shouldn't be doing what I am doing, or depolarizing, or releasing gross energies? I also had issues earlier in my sexual relationships with being haunted / breached by negative entities...