Depression

[sillypumpkins]

@peregrine - your replies have encouraged me to inquire more deeply within myself, and to find the courage within so that I can carry out this journey. i'm still having a little bit of a hard time getting started (it feels daunting) but today I made a point to sit down and sort of write down why I'm feeling depressed (there's a discrepancy between how I want to live and how I am living, for one thing,) and what reactions/responses I act out in my daily life circumstances. I listed some of the few times I've been especially "triggered" (felt the most wounded, in other words) and further elaborated on why these instances might have been so triggering for me. It's a small step but I can feel that it's been a positive one. That is, positive in the sense that it's bringing me closer to that which I desire

@ricdaw - thanks for your response and I appreciate the tarot connection you made. however, can't all catalyst be considered 'lessons?' like, if it's just my body being imbalanced, is there not a lesson embedded in there either way? I suppose it's all perspective, lol. I don't know, I just sort of view every single thing as an opportunity to learn, grow.... try to at least, lol.