what ive been feeling lately

[norral]

i figured i would put this out there as it has been a long time since i have started a post on the forums.
basically i have been experiencing an extreme sense of i dont want to be here anymore. i find that the very structure of society doesnt interest me at all it seems kind of meaningless. i dont want to achieve anything or attain anything or be anything. the structures of better than less than could interest me less they make me want to barf to be honest what a load of
c___ that is. what i do enjoy is spending time with the grandkids who range in age from 15 months to 21. that interests me i guess because youre not playing a lot of games when u relate on their level.
when i look at this world it seems to me that we live in a state of total insanity. the fact that half the world lives in abject poverty and nobody cares about it is proof enuf for me. the fact that this country bombs children around the world and nobody care about it is proof enuf for me. like its our divine right to kill in order to make a few rich.
and to cap it all of there is something sitting out there at the outer edges of my conciousness that the only way i can descirbe it is magnificent. and i feel it is soon to arrive . hard to put into words except to say something wonderful is coming. anyway i though i would put this out there and see how others are feeling. i realize also i am a lot older than others on the board so i dont know if i would be feeling the same way if i was 22 in all fairness(im 63)

norral