The Weed Thread

[zedro]

.... I have a long history with this right upto last year, I know that it is now completely off the table for myself, it played the role it needed to, for better and for worse...

So it's been just over 2 months since I wrote that, and almost 1 year since I last consumed. I am now considering trying again for my meditations, although there is still the issue of unpleasant sessions since it really ramps up the psychic connections. My problem is I always end up pushing further and that's where it can get hairy. I was always warned to take cyclically and with purpose, but it tends to get away from me.

The last time I did edibles I took a significant amount (I'll omit dosage but it was 3 bunny gummies, one more than usual). The effects were so overwhelming, like my energy system was being smothered. While trying to stay calm from all the intense psychic activity, one voice really stuck out when he yelled (in French no less) "You took too many bunnies man!". It was pretty funny despite me writhing on the floor in regret lol.

So much is dependent on frame of mind/vibrational state, like when playing guitar alone, if I was confident and having fun, I literally had 'psychic friends' commenting how much they enjoyed it and were fans (note I have no knowledge of the source). If I'm feeling too self aware and not playing freely, well intro the peanut gallery.

I've done so much shadow work that the negative psychic interest feels mostly like nuisance at least, and if my s***'s together I can just treat it with disinterest, or use for internal work without getting sucked into any games. If there's any openings they will latch on and I'll have to deal with it, but sometimes it's just tiring when you just want to hang out with the positive friends.