Depression and Anxiety

[Nabil Naser]

Anxiety and guilt
That’s the most we should fear
Yet without apprehension.
We would disappear.

So many beginnings
To go to start
Like warm smiles
Pleasing the heart.

There is the mind
Living everywhere
Within the soul
Loving but fair

Machines roar
Tigers in disguise
Little maps for
Our universe

World of probabilities
Illusion and realty
Truths and possibilities

Chance and choices
Within and without
As we curiously
Wander about

I live with someone who sufferers painfully from this along with crippling self-doubt. I'd like some advice

Over the years I have tried many things to 'help' from getting him into hospital at his worst during a breakdown.
To nothing at all, but just being there as he goes through it.
I can see now that in the past I have at times let him rely on me to much, but since I have had children to care for too and have become more awake I realise this is not helping him.

As a person, he's highly sensitive and very creative, as a child of 8 his teacher told his mum she'd never met an infant with such a highly developed sense of morality.
He sees threw bulls*ht easily, and is very intelligent.
Has always stood up for what he believes in and feels totally lost here much of the time. (He's much more of a typical wanderer than me -I feel I've been kicking about here forever and have deep connection and love of this place we call earth)

He’s tried all kinds of things to help himself from CBT to more philosophical/ spiritual stuff.
He lives a life he likes, doing a job of his choosing.

When I talk with him and he asks for my help/opinion - what I share with him seems to help... yet he doesn’t follow up info I pass to him to read.
He lacks the ability to stop the dark thoughts, or even control his thoughts in the way that seems normal to me.

Ways I’ve tried to help include getting him to observe his though processes, love and care for himself more, explore his thoughts emotions in depth or express threw art or transform them.
The Dr’s offer medication which he came off a few years ago, or CBT which is of limited use to him.

He’s been like this since he was a teenager; I met him when he was in his 30’s.



Ok this is where I'm after advice.
Of late he’s told me he feels like there’s a dark force attacking him as he's a light and they want to put him out.
He sounds to me that he's describing psychic attacks. He feels like 'God' has abandoned him.

Other than what I have read in the LOO and here I'm in unfamiliar territory with this. When I have experienced what may or may not have been an attack, I just centre myself and move from fear to love quite quickly.

He almost feels bi-polar moving from crippling fear, self-doubt and darkness - to brief spells of happiness and normality.

I'd be really grateful if anyone has any thoughts to share on this, or ideas that I could offer him when he looks for advice.

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Anxiety and guilt
Guilt and anxiety
One is torture
Both monstrosity

Of having and not giving
Giving and not having
Loving and not being
Being and not loving


By association
Or self infliction
By choice
And by addiction

At home or work
Or in a nightmare
Anxiety and guilt
With you everywhere

I live with someone who sufferers painfully from this along with crippling self-doubt. I'd like some advice

Over the years I have tried many things to 'help' from getting him into hospital at his worst during a breakdown.
To nothing at all, but just being there as he goes through it.
I can see now that in the past I have at times let him rely on me to much, but since I have had children to care for too and have become more awake I realise this is not helping him.

As a person, he's highly sensitive and very creative, as a child of 8 his teacher told his mum she'd never met an infant with such a highly developed sense of morality.
He sees threw bulls*ht easily, and is very intelligent.
Has always stood up for what he believes in and feels totally lost here much of the time. (He's much more of a typical wanderer than me -I feel I've been kicking about here forever and have deep connection and love of this place we call earth)

He’s tried all kinds of things to help himself from CBT to more philosophical/ spiritual stuff.
He lives a life he likes, doing a job of his choosing.

When I talk with him and he asks for my help/opinion - what I share with him seems to help... yet he doesn’t follow up info I pass to him to read.
He lacks the ability to stop the dark thoughts, or even control his thoughts in the way that seems normal to me.

Ways I’ve tried to help include getting him to observe his though processes, love and care for himself more, explore his thoughts emotions in depth or express threw art or transform them.
The Dr’s offer medication which he came off a few years ago, or CBT which is of limited use to him.

He’s been like this since he was a teenager; I met him when he was in his 30’s.



Ok this is where I'm after advice.
Of late he’s told me he feels like there’s a dark force attacking him as he's a light and they want to put him out.
He sounds to me that he's describing psychic attacks. He feels like 'God' has abandoned him.

Other than what I have read in the LOO and here I'm in unfamiliar territory with this. When I have experienced what may or may not have been an attack, I just centre myself and move from fear to love quite quickly.

He almost feels bi-polar moving from crippling fear, self-doubt and darkness - to brief spells of happiness and normality.

I'd be really grateful if anyone has any thoughts to share on this, or ideas that I could offer him when he looks for advice.