Human Relationships and the Concept of Judgment

[Patrick]

...That's really wonderful, but it has do be a daily job again and again, maybe until you leave this incarnation.

Rudolf Steiner did write about this problematic of being an adept too, but he did not have an solution.
He only writes that you should do everything like before, just try to help if possible and to keep distance if needed.

I still remember how I felt ten years ago after my awakening. My wife had trouble aligning with what I was becoming. I wanted to sell the house and live a simpler life. I yearned for fourth density to manifest and I just wanted peace and love. Obviously contact with others was disrupting that peace. I went through this for about 6 months before I discerned that my own spiritual path had already been traveled on the other side of the veil, in my home density. It occurred to me that I was not here to replay it per se.

So when I started having those issues with others, I became aware that I deeply did not want my newfound spirituality to create more separation in this world. I saw how it could create wedges between me and others, especially my wife, and since my desire was to serve others in the best way THEY require, the Creator hollowed me and rearranged my understanding of the world and of spirituality so that I could serve others instead of becoming another weirdo to them which would have just rendered me useless. There is a failure there, since I am now seen as a weirdo nonetheless.  But the type of weirdo that people are intrigued by instead of repulsed.

I am not here to progress my own spiritual path, this happens anyway since we cannot not learn and we cannot prevent our evolution. I am here to help in whatever fashion and so I ask the Creator to make me the best instrument he needs for any purpose and I just let my life unfold. This is done effortlessly nowadays, I am just being myself.

What boggles my mind is that leaving it all up to the Creator like that ended up bringing me an abundance of everything in this incarnation. Especially an abundance of love in my relationships, even work related.