Are Two Souls Better Than One?

[Jim Kent +]

I greet you, my brother,

But nevertheless, we are in 3D now and I am actually quite thankful that this life is not 900 years long.

I've always had these attacks, but thought that they would ebb out after I found the Ra material. Oh how wrong I've been! I know I will come home eventually, but having some few left-overs from PTSD does not help.

PTSD symtoms that I've had was severe. Now as I consider myself recovered (more or less anyway) they are not that severe. Here they are if that helps:

1. No memory of "unimportant" minutae stuff in every day life, like if someone asks you to bring them glass of water, you answer yes, but forget about it in the same second. On the other hand you remember stuff in every single detail that most people do not have any memories off at all, like past lives and childhood.

2. Flashbacks, which are memories played out as visions in your inner sight during the day while you are awake, accompanied with feelings and emotions attached to these memories. These visions used to be of my worst experienced moments. It was nightmares I had endured played out every day without my control. Nowdays it is "pleasant" memories of better days I had long time ago. Though it is joyful moments they too bring deep sorrow, as these moments are forever gone and will exist only in our memories, which in turn brings extreme homesickness.

3. Severe trust issues against all humans as I could not see the Creator in such horror and disharmony.

4. Inability to relax as you always wait for the worst disaster to happen. Now or... now! It will happen right now!

5. Deep depression with strong, romantic longing for the death's release overlaped with deepest pain and suffer in your inner essence.

6. Inability to focus on the present moment, always seeking for something beyond here and now, which is almost always your home.

7. Inability to concentrate.

8. Inability to express your feelings due the trust issues with humans.

There are probably more stuff that I don't remember now, but the above was the worst. As you see these symtoms, they are also not only psychological but exists in our being as Wanderers. These symtoms could be experienced by anyone who leaves its home for "charity work in the third world". Why do you consider PTSD anyway?

Your walk-in Being, is It veiled? Are you two taking turns in "speaking" sometimes or does It only "observe"?

Dear Ankh,

I too am very glad that this particular Human incarnation doesn't last 900 years! I'm not sure whether I'm sick of 3rd density or sick of living as a Human being or both!?!

I have also lost track of the psychic "greetings" directed towards me, they have become so frequent that they have almost become an every-day part of my life!

As regarding my perception that I have/do experience the symptoms of PTSD, I will respond to the points you raised...

1. Not particularly relevant to me.

2. Again, not particularly relevant personally.

3. I can certainly relate to this, I still have difficulty trusting people, even those close to me.

4. I still have great difficulty relaxing and have to meditate for hours to achieve a relaxed state. I also have difficulty sleeping unless aided by some chemical relaxant. I am also expecting the worst to happen most of the time, and even though I attempt to rationalise away these thought-patterns, they still remain constantly, at least on a subconscious level.

5. After my nervous-breakdown in 1999 I descended into the deepest depression of my life lasting many years. I too longed for the release of the death of this physical vehicle I/we inhabit, a feeling that has dissipated somewhat, but has not yet gone completely.

6. I have great difficulty enjoying the present moment and I too, hope for a better future and have difficulty not obsessing about the future because my present seems so crappy.

7. I perceive that my personal situation results, not so much in an inability to concentrate, but a lack of motivation to concentrate, even in areas of my life that I used to find exiting and engaging.

8. I consider myself a competent communicator, although my distrust of most people does hinder the free communication between myself and other-selves.

I hope that this clarifies my theory that I have PTSD, although perhaps all of these symptoms can be explained away by the "Wanderer's Blues" as Carla puts it???

As regards my walk-in being as you put it, our consciousnesses have melded into one and I always attempt to honour the original life priorities of my original Soul, i.e. maintain a healthy relationship with those family and friends that were a part of my life prior to becoming two Souls inhabiting one physical vehicle.

I would be very interested in your opinions regarding my response to the issues raised in this thread.

Stay well my friend!

Jim.