03-24-2011, 04:28 PM
I've been feeling this way for about 3 years now, though I've never been completely comfortable here. For the past several years the homesickness has spiked in intensity, though. I get telepathic communications quite frequently, but it just isn't the same thing as *being* on the other side, able to talk to all my long lost friends face-to-face. I get tired of all the nudges and symbols...I just want something huge and amazing! Like, enough of this game, already. Just come out and talk to me!
I seem to swing from periods of feeling such intense love for this planet that it hurts and feeling like this is a prison planet I can't wait to get off of. A lot of times I think I feel both at once. The way I keep myself going is imagining what it will be like when I finally get done with my work here and I can go home, sit on the couch, pop open a beverage and go "whew! That was something!" Just doing this when I get home from my 3rd density job is such a great feeling. It will likely be 1000 times more satisfying when it comes to finishing the whole mission.
I seem to swing from periods of feeling such intense love for this planet that it hurts and feeling like this is a prison planet I can't wait to get off of. A lot of times I think I feel both at once. The way I keep myself going is imagining what it will be like when I finally get done with my work here and I can go home, sit on the couch, pop open a beverage and go "whew! That was something!" Just doing this when I get home from my 3rd density job is such a great feeling. It will likely be 1000 times more satisfying when it comes to finishing the whole mission.