intense feelings of homesickness

[Confused]

...But I should work with it, try to transform them into something useful, positive. But the hardest part is to stop being selfabsorbed and dwell in selfpitying when it comes as it is a normal, human reaction when one being away and remembers home. I read a text once that I edited and it goes like this: "We are all connected no matter how far we may be."

Dear Ankh, I understand the deep anguish in your post. It is hard, Ankh. Given your unconventional experiences since young, it is very likely that you are a wanderer yourself. And wanderers are characterized as brothers and sisters of sorrow. If you are a wanderer, it is very likely that you came here to alleviate sorrow. You must have seen the pain on this planet from higher densities (or more harmonious planets) and decided to be of help.

But our planet is largely like a spoiled child. Even the most loving service from wanderers have been corrupted by ignorance and outright negativity of the normal earth being, which I think myself to be one too. For instance, the work of Albert Einstein has been co-opted to bring forth weapons of mass destruction. It is heart-wrenching, Ankh, to see that your labor, as a wanderer, is of practically no avail, and to see your work being wasted like proverbial pearls before the swine. It is thus natural to feel tired and to want to go home.

It is something like a teacher pouring out herself to the best of her ability to bring an atrocious child in alignment with its true potential; but the child does not even understand the sacrifice or care the teacher is expending. How will the teacher feel? She will obviously feel discouraged and want to give up. I think that is the state of many brothers and sisters of sorrow. The average earth being does not appreciate their sacrifice and service; and the saddest part is that they do not even recognize that help is being offered.

As regards Orion contact, it is to be expected if you are a wanderer. Wanderers of high positive polarity will be natural targets for the Orion crusaders to attempt to suppress, in order to keep the status quo of darkness prevailing. That is their duty and they are being true to it. That is their service to the ONE. The Orion feel that they are doing the right thing by suppressing compassion and expanding control through wisdom. I think the positive wanderers can learn from the Orion on that front in terms of persistence. Just as they are loyal to their calling, the positive wanderers should attempt to remain loyal to their own calling as well, in terms of persevering amidst the greatest of odds. Remember the beautiful entity of Jesus, Ankh. During his lifetime, his teachings were revolutionary, beautiful and filled with exalted compassion. But he met a painful eventuality. That is the burden that the positive carry. To give off of themselves for the greater good, even if completely unnoticed and unsung.

You have made this home for a period, Ankh. And home is where the heart is. And your heart is obviously of love. May it shine and edify us. The harvest is likely at hand. It will soon be well for you individually, if you can retain the strength to finish the final lap on this long and insane relay race. That way, you will not have to go through 3D again.