intense feelings of homesickness

[Meerie]

It is heart-wrenching, Ankh, to see that your labor, as a wanderer, is of practically no avail, and to see your work being wasted like proverbial pearls before the swine. It is thus natural to feel tired and to want to go home.

It is something like a teacher pouring out herself to the best of her ability to bring an atrocious child in alignment with its true potential; but the child does not even understand the sacrifice or care the teacher is expending. How will the teacher feel? She will obviously feel discouraged and want to give up. I think that is the state of many brothers and sisters of sorrow. The average earth being does not appreciate their sacrifice and service; and the saddest part is that they do not even recognize that help is being offered.

Sorry to bump into your conversation here, but I honestly think none of our efforts are being wasted. And of course we can never know for sure if our service is of help to others or not, but imo that does not really matter. All that matters is that we try to be STO as much as we can. The loving energy that we put out will stay and will help Gaia polarize positively. Nothing ever is lost.